Molly

Tattoo time folks. This Thursday I have an appointment for my next tattoo! I'm so excited. I really have just soo many that I want and I had to take a couple years off so I feel so behind, and so anxious. Anyway, I'm going all out this time. Let me introduce you to Molly:

Isn't she beautiful? I drew her a looooooooong time ago. High school sometime. My original drawing is way battered up, I still have it..but I redid it recently because I knew she was going to be my next tattoo. I have wanted to get her for a long time, but I really wanted to wait until the perfect time in my life to do so. I think Molly will probably be my most meaningful tattoo besides the tattoos I get for my children. She has a cloud over her and it just happens to be raining. I have this quite unfortunate feeling that in my life its always fucking raining. That is NOT me saying that my life sucks. Just clarifying. It just means that even when I'm going through a positive time in my life, or experience something positive, or make a multitude positive memories..there always as to be SOMETHING that happens to make it a difficult task and/or just dampers it a bit. I really don't feel like elaborating much on that one right now, but perhaps someday. I just have terrible luck..that basically sums it up. Regardless, through this rain, Molly is still smiling, and also holding a flower that is larger than life. I say larger then life because it is larger then her, so it symbolizes to me..larger than life. I have so many goals for my lifetime, and sometimes it just seems like such an impossible daunting task list. I am currently trying to maintain a mind set to not look at the list as a whole, but take the first thing and start there. Once that one is accomplished, go to the next. Focus on each individual once vs the entire list. Ya get it? Regardless, I think setting goals for yourself is one of the most important things you can do. It can be any kind of goal...from cleaning the bathroom this week, to having a career that you love. The point is having something to work towards. Having goals makes me feel larger than life, only because it makes me feel that I have control over something. I find myself very uneasy in situations that I have no control over. My goal list? I always have control over that. With all that said, the larger than life flower symbolizes my personal list of goals that I want to always have and always be active with. The pocket watch coming off of the flower looks like shit. I realize that. The tattoo artist is re-doing it for me because I just couldn't do it. I told him I wanted it really really dainty and cute. I am not a good drawer but I tried so hard on Molly and I really do love her. The pocket watch? Looks like asshole. Anyhow, I can still tell you the meaning behind it. The clock will have a time on it that doesn't exist. I am not quite sure what I want that to be. Any ideas? It symbolizes the fact that there is no perfect time for anything...because a "perfect time" doesn't actually exist. If there was something I wanted to do, or buy..I can always think of something else that would be a smarter buy, or something else that I should spend my time doing. Etc. Etc. I decided awhile ago that I was going to kick those nasty thoughts in my head goodbye. If I want to experience something whatever it may be..I'm not letting anything hold me back..because regardless how long I wait, it's still never going to be the perfect time. Perfect example: My Molly tattoo. It is going to be expensive as h and expensive as h. But regardless what point in my life that I am in, I will ALWAYS have things that would be way smarter to spend my money on. I can't live my life that way..I want to experience and go out on limbs and do things that I find myself urging to do. I always wanted to get Molly at a time in my life where I felt I truly needed inspiration. That would be right now. Sure, I need to buy a washer and dryer..and sure I could put it away in my savings. But why the fuck not? I'm always going to have something that would be smarter to buy!!!!!!! Laundry mat? Pain in the ass..but to have Molly? WORTH IT! Anyhow, she is going on my outter left thigh. Then I am getting her framed. Something like this:

None of it is going to be in color. I think she will look soo cute on my thigh with this frame around her. With no color I think the shading of the frame will look really cool. It's going to be pretty darn large. He told me that will all her detail and such, we should do it 12 x 8. EEEK! How exciting! My appointment is on Thursday for 4 hours. It will probably take 2 sessions of 4 hours each. I, of course, will show you a pic Thursday evening. What I'm wondering is what am I supposed to wear when he's doing the tattoo????? Any ideas? Some short ass shorts? Brrrrr! Anyways, suuuuuuuuper excited for Molly!