This is me, approximatly 8 weeks pregnant. What a stinkin surprise eh?? You are telllllling me! Life likes to throw curve balls my way...usually on a daily basis, which is exactly how my luck works. However, I like to consider this curve ball one that I have caught, accepted, and am even excited about! I never had any signs or symptoms of being pregnant until probably a month into my pregnancy. I admit, I was sleeping a ridiculous amount (12-14 hours a night) but I thought that was just because I could! Monday, June 8th is when the first lightbulb lit up in my head and really made me start to think that something was up with my body. Definitely felt sick when I woke up, and definitely felt as if I was bloated like none other. I let it go a couple days and then Wednesday, June 10th after work, I decided I would drive all over stinkin Milwaukee to find a Walgreens that was open to buy a home pregnancy test. It actually was a hard task..and finally my roomie Emily who knows where EVERYTHING is in Milwaukee, guided me to a 24 hour Walgreens. I got home and set the bag with the 2 pack of the home pregnancy tests on my floor and thought to myself...I'll just give that a little while because I'm not too sure I actually want to take those bad boys. I sat on my computer just lolly gagging, looking at pictures that kind of jazz. I felt as if the bag containing the pregnancy tests was haunting me. I could hear in my head "taaaaaaaaake me taaaaaaaake me!" So I had to do it. It was 1am roughly when I made the trek to the bathroom...which usually seems like a couple steps away but in this case it seemed like the walk of death! I took the test and waited not patiently for the results. It was the first response tests where one line means you are not pregnant, and two lines means you are. As I was sitting there, the first line showed up and I was like.....phew! That was a close one. Little did I know, the second line would be appearing in a matter of seconds. The second line appeared and I believe my eyeballs got as big as softballs. "Ohhhh my gosh this can't be right this can't be right!" I ran to my room to grab the other pregnancy test to take immediatley after that. That one was positive too. I sat in my room in complete disbelief. I thought to myself, "my mom is going to murder me" I of course got absolutely NO sleep that night. I text my sister in the middle of the night and told her to call me as soon as she woke up!!!! She called me at around 7am. I heard my phone ring and I had JUST fallen aslelep an hour before so it took me awhile to decide if I was going to answer it or not. I just had to! So I told my sister...sobbing my eyes out of course, and I think she was in disbelief just like I was. She talked me through everything and made me feel a tad better about the situation. "just take it day by day caitlin and don't worry so much about what mom is going to say...right now" I tell my mom EVERYTHING. Literally, everything. Probably a majority of the things I tell her she wishes she didn't know. Regardless, I could not keep this huge huge secret from my mom. I realized that it was in my best interest to drive home to Woodville to tell my parents in person. I told my mom I wanted to come home for the weekend and hang out with her. She was all excited about it..and I added in there that I wanted to chat with her about some stuff. Very non chalant, right? She did not seem to think so. She knew that I wouldn't have to drive 4 hours to talk to her about "some stuff." I had my mom worried for a week and a half about what the heck I was going to tell her. She texts me, are you a lesbian? Are you quitting school? Are you pregnant? Is it your health? Did you get fired? I just told her she would have to wait to find out, and as the days went out she got more and more irritated with the situation. Finding out I was pregnant gave me a whirlwind of emotions let me tell you. For one, I had to quit smoking cold turkey. I've been wanting to quit smoking for a very long time, but never have REALLY tried. Well, I'd like to tell 1-800-QUITNOW that all you have to do to quit smoking is get pregnant! That worked very well for me! I never went outside to smoke a cigerette when I was at home, or at work. I just always smoked when I was driving. It became more like a habit to me then an addiction. My first drive to work from Milwaukee to Waukesha the day after I found out I was pregnant was a nightmare. I got into my car and instantly just wanted to grab a cig and light it. Well obviously I couldn't. I started driving down the road and just started crying. Hysterically. Almost to the point of having to pull over. Not JUST because I couldn't have a cig, but because I realized that everything in my life was changed. Instantly, just like that. The next week and a half went by SOOOOO slow and it was killing me to keep this secret from my mom!!! Friday came along and I knew it was the day to tell my parents. How scary mary. I knew they would be supportive regardless, but it was just going to be hard to tell them that I wouldn't be able to do my internship for another year. (My internship consists of 100% Radiology, lets get real here). I got home and my mom could tell right away that I was soooo nervous. She even made my sister come over and sit next to her while I told her. My mom started crying before I even told her...I was thinking to myself...oooooh great this is going to be bad. The thought occured in my mind that maybe I should consider putting on some running shoes for when she chases me around the streets of Woodville with her hands in the air screaming! She cooled her jets a bit and then right as I began telling her I started crying my eyes out! I looked up at her and she has a mild smile on her face. Wait a second here....whats going on here. I'll take a DVD from my mom without asking and she will not talk to me for a whole week because she is so mad. But I tell her I'm pregnant and she gives me a little smile???!?!?! She was obviously in shock but was instantly supportive. We started talking about what I was planning on doing and little by little everything started falling into place. She thought that I was driving home to tell her that I stole her Sex and the City Series and sold them on E-bay for money. LOL! It literally felt like a million pounds was lifted off my shoulders after I had finally told my mom this deep dark secret I had kept from her for a week and a half. Off to my Dad's house. Jeez louise, as if telling ONE parent wasn't hard enough, I had a whole nother one to go! As I approached my Dad's house I wasn't nervous a bit. I walked inside and my father and I just started chit chatting as usual. We went upstairs because he had to show me something on the computer. As we were sitting there he goes, soooo are you going to tell me? I was like what the hell! Tell you what I have nothing to tell you where did that come from? And he said, You're pregnant! What in the, how the hell did you know that dad!?!? He goes, I just had a feeling. I was going to ask you 2 weeks ago but I didn't want to say anything. If he would have, I probably would have freaked out considering even I didn't know then! During the week and a half that I kept this secret from my parents, my dad had called me one morning to simply ask, "are you behaving" Oh of course I'm behaving dad!!!! That was that. I had told my parents and now the journey was ready to begin. My mood swings are in full boar currently, and its rather irritating. Then again, what isn't irritating to me at this point. One minute I'll be sooo happy and the next minute I'll be so mad I'll start crying. I have this tendancy to snap at people, and even Max got a little taste of that this past weekend. Honestly people, I can't help it. Anyhow, just yesterday I went to my first doctors appointment. I wanted to know how far along I was and when I was due!! The nurse asked me when my last missed period was..."I have no idea" Then she asked me roughly the last one I remember was "I have nooooo idea" She then told me it wasn't a big deal because the doctor would be giving me an ultrasound anyways, and then they could figure it out that way! How exciting!!! I couldn't wait! I was laying there on the table with the hideous gown on. The doctor came in and we chatted a bit and then he said we could do the ultrasound! He turned the machine on and I saw the normal ultrasound picture, but of course there was no baby on it. Two seconds later my little baby popped up on the screen!!! I feeling indescribable! I could see the little heart beating. My little bundle of joy looked sooooo perfect! The doctor said that I was 8 weeks along and my due date was February 4th! Maybe I'll hold on to the little one
for 11 days longer and have it on my birthday!! What a present! I am soooo excited!!! I know this was horrible timing, and I know this was definitely something I was not prepared for. However, the happiness this situtation has brought me is not something I could ever describe to someone. I'm gonna be a mom!!! (I can only hope my mothering skills will be as good as my moms!)
for 11 days longer and have it on my birthday!! What a present! I am soooo excited!!! I know this was horrible timing, and I know this was definitely something I was not prepared for. However, the happiness this situtation has brought me is not something I could ever describe to someone. I'm gonna be a mom!!! (I can only hope my mothering skills will be as good as my moms!)