Logically Logical

Just some random tidbits of information I'd like to inform you of at this moment in time.

1. I am sick of my background on here and want to change it. Considering I am way too lazy, it probably won't happen for awhile.
2. I am in love with Aldi plain bagels. They are like no other bagels. After being toasted, they are crunchy yet so fresh at the same time. It literally is the only breakfast I can keep down. I have been eating a plain bagel with cream cheese on it for breakfast everyday since the beginning of November. I look forward to it when I go to bed at night.
3. Axton should be called the destroyer. I get he's at the age where he is so curious of his surroundings but DANG. I've never done so much picking up in my life. I'm only going to be doing more of that once the baby comes. YIKOLAS! I guess it wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't such a neatfreak. Let me clarify, I am not a neatfreak as a matter of fact. I just really don't like clutter. Aka, Axtons toys taking up every square inch of my carpet. Wouldn't it be luxurious if he could pick a toy out of his toybox, play with it for a bit, and then nicely return it as he picks out a different toy? Pffffff, I'll keep dreaming! On a positive note, I do love watching him explore and learn about his surroundings. He's just so precious.
4. Morning sickness plus Axton's new time for pooping (morning time) is not a good mixture for me. It really is a challenge.
5. Axton does this thing where when he is eating at his highchair and he is done eating, he starts slyly throwing his food on the floor so it looks like he's done. I just wish he could understand what I'm saying when I say to him on a mealy basis, "Axton, I really don't mind if you are full and can't finish your breakfast/lunch/dinner. But please understand that it is not necessary to act like you ate it all by sneakily throwing it over your shoulder or to the side. It actually creates more work for me than if you would just leave it on your tray".
6. Bills suck.
7. I just got Instant Netflix since Cody got an Xbox 360 w Kinect for Christmas. Man is it nice. Instant Netflix ROCKS.
8.Goodbye for now.

Long Time No See!

So it has been literally ages since I have written. There really isn't much for Axton to do in our spare bedroom where the computer is so its hard to find time to come on here and write! I will have to update you on everything going on in my life!

I am so excited for the holidays, it is my favorite time of year! Family, Food, and Fun! Axton is getting so big! In less than two months he will be one years old! I can't wait until his first birthday party, it will be so much fun! I'll probably be an emotional basket case but who cares! Time is going by so fast, and it seems Axton does something new every single day!

On another note, Cody and I have set our wedding date! We will be making our lifelong commitment to each other on September 1st, 2012! I can hardly wait! I am definitely NOT the wedding planning kind of person. At. All. Good thing I am the least fancy dancy kind of person ever so it shouldn't be difficult. I know we want our wedding outside, and the ceremony to be private with closest family, and closest friends. But of course we will have a reception for many to be apart of!

Some more exciting news is that Cody and I are expecting another baby! I am currently 8 weeks along and my due date is July 16th. I think anyone that knows me knows that I am soooo not a fan of the whole pregnancy thing, but that is just part of the deal! Ready or not I am taking on the roller coaster of a challenge again! When I found out I was pregnant with Axton there was just a lot of stressful things in my life that came along with it. It was a really hard time for me with a lot of big decisions to make that would change the path of my life. The first couple months of my pregnancy with Axton was very very rocky and emotional. In the end of course, everything turned out just the way I wanted it to and I can't imagine him not being here! With this pregnancy it has already been so different. There aren't any huge decisions to make, across state moves to make, etc etc. It is just Cody and I celebrating the fact that we are creating a life, and boy do we feel blessed! Sure, it would have been nice to be married first before having another baby, but Cody and I aren't going to let anyones personal thoughts about that get us down! I have never felt so lucky in my whole life. A wonderful Fiancé, lovely son, and now we get to look forward to making our family one person larger! What a gift! We weren't going to let the cat out of the bag for a while yet. We were going to tell everyone on Axton's first birthday party when everyone would be together! It didn't turn out that way because I am already showing and there is just no way of hiding it! With Axton I wanted to start showing as fast as possible! With this pregnancy I had the knowledge of how hard it is to find clothes etc for a growing belly so I wanted my belly to take its time in starting to show our bundle of joy! Not the case however! I have heard from many people and read online that your second baby you show waaaay sooner than your first. And that is definitely correct. I am showing now at 8 weeks like I was at 12 weeks with Axton. Its crazy! So far, I am feeling horrible, tired all the time, you know..all that good stuff! Every morning and throughout the day I feel soooo sick! Like I could vomit at any point in time. I just am not a fan of that what so ever, can't wait until it passes! I plan on keeping updates on my blog of my pregnancy, so if I don't write for awhile someone just say something to make me!

I made this this morning and couldn't stop laughing so feel free to enjoy!
http://elfyourself.jibjab.com/view/Fbc9E84IOuiS08Yyjk3H

Ok, you're right.

So Cody and I were at Savers in Eau Claire looking at Halloween selection pieces, and I wanted to go look in the purses. I saw the green and white one and I really liked it along with the dollar fifty price. Cody says to me, "yeah right, you need something like this (red purse that looks like underwear) so I don't have to hear you whine and scrounge around for ten minutes when you're looking for something in your purse. Ok. Point taken.



Funny thing is, I asked him if I could take a picture of him holding up the purses and he actually agreed. After the fact, he realized I was probably going to make a blog about it, and was frantically "scrounging around in my purse" for my camera to delete the picture. Too bad soo sad.

Also, I got the green and white purse. Bahahahaha!

So Much Fun!!

This past week I have had so much fun, and the next few days will be so much fun too! I hardly ever get to see Cody because he works 2 jobs, but it seems like we've gotten to see so much of each other lately! On Wednesday we got to spend the whole day together, and we decided to go to Valley Fair! I was very excited to go to Valley Fair because I haven't gone in a verrrrrrrrrrrrrrry long time (a couple years at least!) Anyways, we got there and there was fortunately not a lot of people there at all. The problem was, every cool ride we went on made me feel like I was going to barf everywhere! When I was younger, I loved going on rides! I could go on a roller coaster and after it was over, run around to the line and get right back on! Not this time let me tell you. The wild thing didn't even have a line, all day long..none of the rides really did actually. But could we go on them repeatedly? NO! Poor Cody :( I never understood how people could get sick from rides but I totally get it now. Barf-O-Rama. If the ride didn't make me freakishly sick to my stomach, then I literally felt like I was going to die and never see my son again. On a more positive note about Valley Fair, we had a real good time at the water park and on the water rides! The only ride we went on repeatedly was the Wave where we got soaked to the max. We were like little kids on that ride. Anyhow, now he has 4 days off in a row!!! I do not remember the last time we got to spend that much time together. This afternoon we went to Avatar 3D. That was really fun! We never saw Avatar in theaters when it originally came out because we didn't really have the money. Once it came out we watched it and became Avatar hardcore fans. We were really kicking ourselves for not seeing in it theatre 3D. When we saw the previews for it coming back in theaters 3D our dreams came true. Needless to say, it was AWESOME-loved the bonus scenes. The 3D glasses after wearing them for 3 hours really gave us a headache though! Tomorrow we are going to the State Fair, and then on Monday we are having a grill out with Cody's Family. Should be a great time! Feel so lucky to have the best, most loving family ever!

Yes! Yes! Yes!

I am ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can hardly believe it! My life couldn't get any better, honestly. I am soooooooo happy! I shall tell you the story of our engagement :)

It was August 20th, about 10 pm..and I was sitting on the computer dilly dallying around. Axton was in his crib sleeping. It is impossible for me to go to sleep until I have gone and checked on Axton at least 10 times before I can comfortably sleep knowing he's alright. I know, he's 7 months old, and I STILL check on him a million times before I go to bed..AND during the night! He sleeps through the night, but my motherly instinct just won't let me wake up during the night and NOT walk in his room and check. Cody gives me a lot of grief for this, and finds it rather humorous. Cody can't fall asleep at night unless I'm in bed next to him..so when I'm dilly dallying on the computer forever when he wants to go to sleep, he will come into the computer room and pester me until I say, "FINE I'LL GO TO BED!" For some reason, that night he wasn't getting after me..which I did find rather peculiar but I wasn't about to say something about it. After awhile, I get off the computer, walk into Axton's room for the 9th time that evening probably..and there was Axton in his crib playing with a ring. Axton has a night light in his room, but it was still kind of dark. I had to squint a couple times to see if what I was even seeing was real. -----Back tracking a little bit now...I have to tell you that on Friday's Cody works both of his jobs. He works at bloomer ford from 8 to 12 and then from 2 to 7:30 he works as a tire technician at Sam's Club. I really hate Fridays because it seems like forever until I see him. I begged and begged and convinced him to come home after working at Bloomer, and before going to work at Sam's Club. So he came home, I made him lunch, and then off he went to Sam's Club. When I got home that evening, I made dinner, and anxiously awaited his arrival home. When he got home, his breath smelled like beer. I was like, why does your breath smell like beer if you just got home from work? He's like, ooooooh I had a really rough day so I had to get a beer at the gas station before I came home. Whaaaaaaaaaaat? Wait a second, you mean to tell me you drank while you were driving home? What the hell? He's like, it was a rough day! I couldn't believe it...so then I was like that is the dumbest thing you could ever do, blah blah blah etc. So....back to the story. As I was squinting and realizing that Axton was playing with a gorgeous, not just any kind of ring in a ring box...I look behind me and there is Cody on one knee asking me if I would marry him. Awwwwwwww :) :) Gives me chills just thinking about it. Instead of me saying Yes right away, I said are you serious about 12 times..and then I said, wait! You didn't go to work this afternoon! Followed by, You didn't drink that beer in your car did you!!!!!!!! And THEN I said...OF COURSE I WILL MARRY YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! It was so cute because he was sooooo nervous, and shaking. Which is just funny because as if I would have said No!!! Anyways, that is the story of our engagement. I am very excited, and absolutely love my new bling on my finger! As far as setting a date and planning? We aren't really set on anything. I am almost 100% sure that we want a destination wedding...as far as where we still have to figure that out. And most likely it will be in Feb of 2012. I will keep you updated on my decision making I'm sure!!!
P.S.
Axton is 7 months old and just the cutest stinkin little boy in the world for real! Here is a picture of him at 7 months.


Not Really sure why but looking at him from behind just melts my heart because he's just so precious. I love his fuzzy head!

PUMP

Okay I just want to say that I am completely and most utterly disgusted by gas pumps. If I wouldn't look like such a freak, I would wear gloves every time I pump gas. While being pregnant, I became a huge germ freak, and it just has carried with me even after being pregnant. The thing that bothers me the most though, by far, is the stinkin gas pump handle. I can guarantee that no one ever sanitizes that thing, and think about how many people touch it in a day! GROSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Butch

Soooo, yesterday I took Axton to the clinic. He kept grabbing his ears and that is a sign that he might have an ear infection. I just wanted to be sure so I brought him in to the doctor, just to find out that Axton purely discovered his ears and likes to grab them. This is not the point of my post today. The point of my post today is to share with you the experience I had while at the clinic.

Where: Glenwood City Red Cedar Medical Clinic
When: July 6th, 2010 2:30pm
Why: Stated above

I am sitting on the chair waiting for my name to be called. I am playing with Axton and Axton is making very funny/cute noises. This very VERY manly woman is sitting across from me. She has spiked, bleached at the tip, hair. She is wearing very long baggy shorts. Very XXXL T-shirt. She starts talking to Axton. "Hi there!" "Hiii!" Axton is smiling back at her and making noises along with the smiles. She asks me what his name is, and I tell her. She tells me he is the cutest baby she has ever seen and she just LOVES his name. (I TOTALLY agree with both!) The nurse comes to the door and says "Axton Kahl" I proceed to stand up, grab all the millions of things you have to carry when bringing a baby anywhere, and walk towards the door. This lady/man follows me. MMkay. She hands me a slip of paper. MMkay. I look at it..and it is her phone number. Ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I almost shit my pants. I didn't even know how to react. I just said, "oh thanks" So I walk back to the room and the doctor walks in. (I am very close with my doctor and talk to him about EVERYTHING) I say to him, do you know what just effing happened to me? A very manly woman gave me her number! I said, Do I look like a lesbian today? Am I kind of giving off that vibe today? Since I have my baby with me doesn't that mean I had sex with a man? Meaning I like men? He could not stop laughing at me. He says, I need to see this for myself. He proceeds to walk out to the waiting room to catch a glimpse which I just could NOT believe he did. He comes back in the room and says..."A true gem you have there, I'd give her a call" LOL! I just love my doctor. Anyways, I said to him..you have to find me a different way to leave the clinic because I just cannot go back out there and chance her still being here. I just do not know what I would even say, oh my gosh I'm so embarrassed. He told me my cheeks were bright red. He says, there is a back door that the employees go in and out of. I can sneak you out that. OF COURSE I took him up on his offer. As I walk out the door, I can see at the main entrance she is standing there. So I hide behind the wall so she couldn't see me. I see her putting her cig out and walking back inside. Woo! Safe! I start walking to my car and once I get there I put Axton in and see out of the corner of my eye that she is walking towards me. I literally started shaking viscously. I was thinking to myself, WHAT THE HELL! Oh my gosh oh my gosh what do I do what do I do. She says, hey so are you gonna give me a call? (<-- okay what the eff? Who does that?) I honestly had NO idea what to say. So I said..Umm...probably not. She says, well my name is Dawn and I am pretty confident in the fact that I can show you a good time. (<-- Okay what the eff? Who does that? I have my SON with me who is a BABY) I said, I honestly don't really know what to say besides that I am not a lesbian. She says, "are you sure?" WHAT THE EFF. Am I sure? Am I sure that I like men? Yes I am sure I like men lady, what the hell. Do I really look like that much of a lesbian that she would have to question me saying I like men? At this point I am hyper ventilating and I just want her to GO. AWAY. I sat in my seat and I said, I have to go BYE! I can't stop thinking about it. I just don't understand. I went to my Moms after the clinic and I told her the story and she goes, "well, you do kind of look like a lesbian today" WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!!! I just want to say............I LIKE MEN! In fact, I LOVE MEN! I love MY man! I love my man to pieces and I do NOT wish he was a woman!

Axton!

My Bubbas!!! I started feeding him cereal and he loves it!

Greetings!

Its been awhile since I have written and for this I apologize. Being a Mom is hard work and takes up all the time in a day plus more! I'm sorry but I'm just going to have to do the list thing. I just take forever to write so then I have so many random things to say.

-Axton is getting SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO big!! I love watching him grow everyday and learn new things everyday!

-I am laid off. Which is fine. I get to spend more time with Axton. Cody works two jobs...I hardly ever see him...but if it wasn't for him working two jobs we would be screwed right now.

-I am FINALLY wearing my old clothes. I feel like a whole new person! I am used to wearing a total of 5 shirts and 2 pairs of pants. Having an entire closet full of clothes makes a girl feel RREEEEEEEEEEEEAL good. I never thought I would ever get back to my pre pregnancy weight, but it proved to be possible. And I didn't even have to do anything. This also means my boobs are back to pre-pregnancy size...which when they are as big as kick balls during pregnancy and after baby is born, its hard to beleive they ever get back to normal! (This also means pre-preg nip size which is relieving........................ enough said)

-I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE our new place! It has so much more room. SO much more room. I looooooooooooove it. It has a third room for baby #2. Not that I can even think about baby number 2 right now. One is hard enough, I can't imagine two! Cody on the other hand wants to start trying for baby #2....4 months ago. Heck, a day after Axton was born. I told him he has to wait until Axton is at LEAST 9 months old.

-I am getting so excited to meet my niece or nephew!!! My sister is getting larger. Not only does it make me extremely miss being pregnant, but its just SO weird to think there is a baby in there that will come out and I'll love so much! Dexter or Ayda come out come out wherever you are! Just joking, you need to keep growing for a bit longer!

-Any suggestions how to make time at the end of the day to make dinner, clean up the kitchen, etc etc with baby? Wait, what I meant to say was: any suggestions on how to make time TO DO ANYTHING!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!! You may be thinking to yourself, you are laid off. You have plenty of time to do stuff. Well you couldn't be more wrong person thinking that.

-Dear Stretch Marks on my Stomach, I EFFING HATE YOU. One piece swimsuit here I come.

-I feel like my new full time job is washing bottles. I'm never not having to wash bottles. Again I say to anyone having a baby anytime soon....BREASTFEED AS LONG AS POSSIBLE BECAUSE FORMULA/BOTTLES SUCKS WORSE THAN ANYTHING!

Shwing Batta Batta Batta

Title = Not necessary for survival. Just couldn't think of anything else. I am such a slacker sometimes. I mean, now I am back at work..am in front of a computer daily, and still hardly ever write. Naughty Caitlin! Anyways, let me update you on my life. This may be a lengthy blog so if you object..then stop stinkin reading right about...now. I love listing things so I'm just going to do that.

1. I am back at work now. It is a nice change...but I sure as heck would rather be with my bubbas. I miss him so much and think about him all day long at work. I bring my camera to work so I can go through all my pictures, which essentially makes me miss him more so I really should refrain. When 4pm rolls around, I can not get to my Mom's house fast enough to see him! A week from today he starts going to an actual Day Care instead of being with Grandma. (Yes, I got a spot in the day care I really wanted!)

2. My breastfeeding is coming to an abrupt halt. I object. Let me elaborate before just saying that I LOVE breastfeeding because that just sounds weird. At the hospital after Axton was born...breastfeeding was torture. The day he entered into the world he didn't even eat. He just had no interest in eating what so ever. When he did want to eat, he would not latch to save my life. It was a battle..and my nipples were getting the bad end of the deal. It. Hurt. So. Bad. Honestly. The nurse would come into the room and say, time to feed him -(Very adamant about feeding him every 2 hours)- and I would be like, NOOOO!!!!!!!!! My nipples were like battle fields and it honestly wouldn't have felt any different to me if you would have just taken a chainsaw to them and cut them off. I was still having trouble with him latching and the nurses introduced me to a nipple shield. Once I started using that, he learned to latch on correctly. One word of advice- if breastfeeding hurts insanely bad...its just because the baby isn't latching right. Once the baby learns to latch correctly, you don't feel a thing and this is the truth. So do not give up!!!! Even if you desperately want to, it gets better, and your nipples learn to deal with it and you don't feel it anymore! I was strictly breastfeeding up until about 3 months, and then I had to start supplementing with formula. (Also, Axton learned to latch correctly with out a nipple shield on easter!) At first I didn't really care that I had to supplement with formula. I think I needed a mental break from breastfeeding. To me it seemed like it would be easier to just make a bottle so then other people besides just me could feed him. But I learned quickly that that was much more of a pain in the rear. Axton started eating more and my body wasn't keeping up. I was trying everything that I could but it just was producing the same and he just kept wanting more. I started panicking because it was then that I realized how much I cherish my time with Axton when I get to breastfeed him. Its special. <-- Lame statement from lame-o but so true. If I could go back and change something, it would be that I would have never started supplementing with formula and I would have tried harder to have my body produce enough milk for him. Its just been downhill since then. He's just eating more, and I'm even more behind. And now that I am back at work its even worse!!! When I first came to work I started pumping..in a room labeled "the barn" thanks to my fellow co-workers. That didn't last very long because obviously a pump doesn't work as well as your stinkin baby. Anyways, now Axton has formula during the day and when I pick him up until when I drop him off he breastfeeds. I don't know why this bothers me so much but it does. If I think back to when he was first born, my body was making A HECK OF a lot more milk then he needed. I wish I would have taken the time to pump to build up a frozen supply when I actually had the milk...no matter how tired I was instead of opting to wake up with a completely soaked shirt instead of just pumping. I mean, when my milk first came in my tots were the size of kick balls. Literally. Note to self for second baby: PUMP AS OFTEN AS POSSIBLE IN THE BEGINNING! BETTER TO HAVE MORE THAN NOT ENOUGH!

3. I am 22 and have sag bag stretch marked tots. (refrain from your jealousy, I beg of you) This seems unreasonable. Granted, as said before, I love breastfeeding and wouldn't change it for the world. BUT, due to this, I have to now lift my small boobs into the correct area of a shirt. Gag me. Conversation between Cody and I:
Caitlin: "Gosh, I can't believe that I have saggy boobs. I mean, I am only 22!"
Cody: "You do not have saggy boobs for crying out loud"
Caitlin: "You don't have to lie, I can see them just as well as you can"
Cody: "Well, they aren't THAT bad"
Awesome. Just awesome. At least he doesn't care. That's why I love him so much, very accepting no matter how ugly my boobs are now, and no matter how stretch marked my boobs/stomach are. As much as I act like I care about how much my body has changed since having a baby, it really doesn't bother me because I would take tots down to the ground, stretch marks on my face, and be 600 pounds if it meant still having Axton. All Worth it.

4. We are moving in a week and I can not wait. Honestly. My small apartment is killing me. Killing.

5. Summertime = massive amount of freckles. Hello freckles, nice to see you.. its been awhile.

6. I was told by my hairdresser that after Axton was born there would be a point in which my hair would start massively shedding. Well, I've unfortunately been dealing with that the past 2 weeks. I really do think I've lost 50% of my hair. It is disgusting. One of the most irritating things I have had to deal with in my life thus far. Not joking. I take a shower, and after I wash my hair it looks like I am wearing a fur coat. Its so sick. Okay body, I realize hormones are trying to get back to normal..but honestly...its not necessary to make me shed SO MUCH. My hair is everywhere. You should see my pillow case. You should see the bathroom floor. All floors in fact. You should see my brush. <-- lie because I don't even brush my hair due to the fact that I am afraid it would all come out. I find my hair in Axton's clean and dirty diapers, I find my hair wrapped around his pacifiers, I find my hair in the keyboard on the computer, in the refrigerator, in the kitchen sink, on door knobs, in my buttcrack, in my water bottles, in my dinner, wrapped around my fork, wrapped around Axton's neck...ITS NEVER ENDING. I am at the point where I seriously want to buzz it off. Heck, I could have made a damn wig if I would have known it would be this extreme. Now I know how trees feel in the fall.

Alright, all for now. Adios until next time fellow humans.

Day Care

Sooooo the dreadful day care search began this week. It is something I have been dreading, really. My mom is watching Axton for the month of May, which is REALLY nice. But I have been on a search for a daycare starting June 1st. I start work next week and my stomach has been in knots all week long. I know that next week I will be so emotionally and physically exhausted. I'm not used to getting up early and I'm definitely not used to being away from Axton. Both will be very hard to get used to. Sooo...originally Cody and I had discussed that we wanted Axton to be in a more "family" day care, which is someone having a day care at their home. Yesterday I went to go meet a lady who held a day care at her house. There was absolutely nothing wrong with her...but when I left I just didn't get that..."YES! I WOULD TOTALLY FEEL COMFORTABLE LEAVING AXTON THERE!" feeling. Cody thought I was over reacting because like I said..there was NOTHING wrong with that lady. He said that no matter who or where it was I wouldn't be happy about it since I dream daily about being a stay at home Mom. For some reason I just felt like I WOULD get that "yes!" feeling. Kind of like trying on a wedding dress. When you have "the one" on..you cry because its so right. I thought thats what it would be like with the day care..or at least I was hoping. All in home family day cares in the Menomonie area are filled...so basically it was this lady, or group day care. I did a lot of thinking yesterday and I decided that it wouldn't hurt to at least go view some day cares. I didn't want to just settle, especially with something this important. Today I went to go view the daycare called Monkey Business. SUCH a nice place. I've actually had my eyes on it for awhile because I just thought it looked like such a nice place. I called this morning to get a tour and asked if they had an availability in the infant class. They did. They said that they very very rarely have openings but they have one for June 1st which is EXACTLY when I needed it for. I had a really good feeling about this place. I walked in and was greeted by such a wonderfully kind man. Him and his wife own the day care. They are a Christian facility and he said right from the get go that he believes that children are a gift from God and they facilitate that in the children's learnings everyday. He gave me a tour and I was in love. Literally. Everything about that place was absolutely PERFECT. Everybody LOVED Axton and everyone was sooooooooooooooooo nice!!! They have the cutest little old lady there that cooks all the meals for the children. Too bad Axton doesn't get to eat that stuff yet because she was baking homemade blueberry muffins and cooking up some stroganoff for lunch as well as homemade squeezed lemonade!!!!! (Sorry Axton, you'll have to deal with milk for now). Anyways, I was so so so so pleased with this place. I got the "YES THIS IS THE PLACE ITS SO PERFECT OH MY GOSH" feeling. Definitely. I was sold. I even started crying like a little baby because I just was so happy that I found a place I was so comfortable with and would totally love Axton to be a part of their "family" as they said. He went through all the paperwork with me and told me what I needed to fill out. My heart was instantly broken when he told me that to ensure the spot for June first I needed to pay the registration fees for the summer and fall and the first week of care. 240 dollars. I knew how much the rate was per week which is 180..which is also what every other day care in Menomonie is. Daycare expensive? UM YES! I would pay a million dollars for this place to watch Axton though..it would be worth every penny. The problem is that I have been on maternity leave for the last 3 and a half months so money isn't exactly....pouring out of my pockets. We are moving June 1st so we had to pay 765 for security deposit on that place as well as my class starting June 7th which was 380. I start work on Monday so I will have a check on next friday, but he needs the paperwork by early next week :( :( :( :(. I have to talk to Cody when he gets home tonight so we can try to figure something out. I will be so devastated if Axton doesn't get to go to this day care. Everything happens for a reason, (just like this sudden opening in this day care!)and I am just praying that Cody and I can figure something out financially so that I can be a happy Mommy and Axton can be a happy wonderfully cared for baby come June 1st.

English Language

You know, they always say that the English language is the hardest to learn. I think that is quite logical considering we name things like this:

I don't know about you but if I was trying to learn English and I came across a beverage named Dr. Pepper I would be very apprehensive to try it. Who thought of that name anyways? Dr? PEPPER?

LOL

I've decided that I hate "lol". I mean, I use it occasionally, but I just think its so dumb. 98% of the time that people text/type lol...they aren't actually laughing out loud. It is completely and most utterly overused. If someone says something funny, its just habit to say, lol...I've been recently trying to go with the whole "haha" thing..which is working quite well, but lol still gets whipped out here and there. I have a feeling lol will be around for awhile. Stupid person who invented lol. Why can't it be changed to tisf. That Is So Funny. Much better than LAUGHING OUT LOUD which is actually a lie most of the time.
Next subject. Mice. I heard on TV yesterday that a mouse can swim for 3 days straight until it gets too tired and dies. 3 DAYS! Now that is a long time to have those little whippin snappin legs of theirs going about.

Look at this little guy and imagine him swimming for 3 days straight. Amazing. Disgusting, but amazing.
Cody and I found our new apartment! Well, its actually a duplex. I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE IT! I can't wait to move. I mean I can because I HATE packing. Unpacking is groovy because I like putting things away in their new spots and what not..but still. Considering I only have 10 days left of maternity leave..packing and unpacking and moving and all that jazz will be a tad stressful to deal with. Our place is 3 bedrooms 2 full bathrooms, 2 car garage and even has its OWN laundry room with a brand new washer and dryer. I just can't wait.

Brown to the ies

Honestly, Aldi has the BEST BEST BEST brownies. I'm not joking either. I tried them and oh my gosh, so delicious. Then I tried Betty Crockers "America's Favorite Brownie" <-- what a bunch of bogus. Doesn't even come close. I recommend everyone to try these. I included an awesome picture of the box of brownies so you can find them easier knowing what they look like. If you notice on the box it says New Look Same Great Taste! The look of the NEW box is actually rather boring. The one before was much better. I'm not complaining as long as the brownie is still in service. And yes, I am hiding behind the brownie box. Big whoop.

As far as the new blog title, I was getting sick of my old one. I get sick of the look of my blog quite frequently and have to change that often as well. I wanted a new blog title and couldn't think of ANYTHING. Frozen lemons will have to do for now until I think of something more permanent.

Boring

Ugh, I'm so boring. I never blog anymore. Even when I say that I am going to blog more, I never do. Such a sad sad situation. I want to blog more to keep track of everything going on in my life so I don't forget later. Its easier said then done. Let me think of things I can update on. Well, Cody and I are looking to move in a month or so. We need to move closer to Eau Claire since I got accepted to go to school there in the fall :) Yay! Axton is getting SO big. 3 months old already, I can't believe it! Cody and I realized that it just might be awhile til we can have another baby. We want our kids to be close together, but the timing right now just sucks. We could either start trying in September/October..so that I would be due right after I am done with school...therefore I could apply for jobs pertaining to my new degree after my "maternity leave". Otherwise, if we waited until after I was done with school..essentially that would mean we would have to wait until like a YEAR after I am done with school because I don't want to be applying for a new job WHILE being pregnant or getting pregnant shortly after finding a new job. This would mean Axton and baby #2 would be around 3 years apart! I am not diggin the whole 3 years apart business. Oh well, I guess we'll just have to do a lot of thinking about the whole situation. I don't want to wait that long to have another baby, but thinking of being pregnant again in October almost makes me nervous!! I wish I enjoyed talking on the phone so I could call my friends in Waukesha and catch up. I feel so distant from them..well I guess that is because I am. But I just wish I knew a lot more of what is going on in their lives than I do. But I hate talking on the phone. That gets me pretty much no where. Something really absurd is this: Axton can not sit still for more than 15 minutes at a time without making noises, pooping his pants, getting hungry, or wanting his nuk. The ONLY time he can sit still and not make a peep is when he is watching baseball with Cody. He LITERALLY can sit through an ENTIRE baseball game and just stare at the tv. The commercials are pushing his attention span a little bit...but the second baseball comes back on his eyes are glued. No idea if that is some sort of sign that he is going to love baseball or if he just likes all the colors.

Chocolate Anyone?

-I am obsessed with chocolate. I didn't like it much before I was pregnant and now I can not get enough. Honestly. Brownie Batter Blizzards at Dairy Queen are TO DIE FOR. They aren't on the menu mind you, but they are there. Trust me.
-I should be sleeping right now since Axton just went back to sleep but I can't. I am thinking about far too much. Fine I'll show you some examples:
**I am hungry and don't know what to eat**Someone is coming today at 4:00 to view our apartment. I have to clean before then. My clothes are everywhere with boxes everywhere because I have been changing out my closest from winter to summer and from maternity to still chunky/baggy summer shirts I can pull off**I NEED to do something new with my hair desperately, but I can't think of what**Still in the searching process of finding a new apartment by June 1st. Pretty sure we are moving to Menomonie since it would just make sense considering we both will be driving to Eau Claire everyday. Just for a year though, then I want to relocate back this way.

OK I'm so tired now, must get sleep.

Ohhh Life.

Greetings fellow homosapiens,

There is always something to deal with, for real. If its not a money problem, its a pooping problem. If it isn't a pooping problem it is a headache problem, school problem, neighbor problem, maintenance problem, table problem etc etc. I am sick of it. Why can't everything just be happy go lucky. Why does the world revolve around money. Drives me nuts.

Good Note: I got accepted for the renal dialysis technician program in September
Bad Note about the good note: I will have class from 8am to 12:55pm and have to work second shift so that will be from 2:30pm to 10:30pm. When am I going to ever see my son. Yes it is temporary but STILL. Breaks my heart thinking about it
Good Note: I'm still madly in love with my boys :)
Bad Note: figuring out a money situation for the next month of my maternity leave is horrid. Yuck. Hate it.
Good Note: Axton woke up today with 10 extra rolls on his legs.
Bad Note: Ants are back. I Have a bugphobia not joking.
Bad Note: This equals massive amounts of anxiety attacks. Yes, even with ants.

Now, I must speak of PMS. Cody hasn't experienced dealing with this for quite some time. Oooooh my goodness. Before Axton, I never really got PMS at all. Now, its full bore. Woofta. I think today I have gotten mad for no reason at least 100 times. I mean really, whats even wrong with getting mad at EVERY. LITTLE. THING? Pfff, In Cody's words, "I think every woman PMSing should be put into a box and put in a room where no one on the outside world should have to deal with them" I can't be that bad can I? Granted, once second I am SOOO happy and smiling and laughing...then I see an ant and my face gets red and I am screaming. It could be worse I told him, I could be Bi-Polar and be like this every day :) :)

List Bliss

1. I haven't blogged since February 16th. I think something is wrong with this.
2. I haven't blogged in this long because I am immensely enjoying spending time with my baby and I just can't seem to pry myself away from him.

Could you?
3. I was 130 pounds when I first was pregnant, the day Axton was born I was 177 pounds, and 9 weeks later I am 140. So I have 10 more pounds until I am back to before baby weight. Although I'm not sure its going to be an easy 10 pounds to lose.
4. Student loans are really ticking me off and I wish they would disappear. Granted I am only paying 1 out of 1999000 of them at this point, but all of them will kick in, in September if I am not in school..and my monthly student loan payments will be roughly 470 a month. This makes me want to keel over.
5. When I applied to school for the Renal Dialysis Technician program, there was 2 spots open in the program for September and they were reviewing 4 applications. Now it says the program is full and 2 people are on the waitlist. Do you think they have sent me any sort of letter stating which position they have placed me? In the program or not in the program, this is the question of the century. I would like to call and ask...but I already have done that numerous times and they like to tell me I have to wait a month to find out. This is ludicrous. If I'm not going to be in school in September, then I refuse to fill out my FAFSA because that is something I dread. No school= no reason to waste my time filling out FAFSA.
6.My sister is having a baby/babies and I am SO excited to be an AUNT! I'll babysit EVERYDAY!!! After having Axton, Cody and I have baby fever. Having another baby at this point is rather unrealistic, but I wouldn't be surprised if we can't refrain for much over a year. I am SO excited..like I said..to be an aunt..and SO excited to be around another little baby to take care of my baby fever for a tad longer. Wait,that might actually make it worse.
7. I have never been so happy in my whole life. I love Axton and Cody to death and I do not know what I would do without them.
8. I am obsessed with watching prison shows. Cody DOES NOT understand why, and quite frankly..neither do I. I just find it fascinating!
9. I would do ANYTHING..and I mean...ANYTHING to be a stay at home mom. I go back to work May 10th and I honestly dread it every single minute. I can not even imagine leaving my little buddy at a day care :( Granted, my Mom is watching Axton for the first month which I am SO thankful for. BUT, after that month is over, the devastation will kick in that much more. It's just so odd because I originally never even wanted children, and now that I have Axton, I realize that I want a MILLION children. Okay, not a million. But 5. For Real. I could have NEVER imagined myself wanting to be a stay at home mom, but I have never wanted anything more in my life.
10. I am going to try my best to write more often, promise.
11. I can't wait for Easter this Sunday! I love family get togethers, they are so so so much fun and I love seeing my family. I wish I could EVERYDAY! Axton's first easter...he's too little to search for easter eggs though :)

Update on Mommyhood

Okay I know that I haven't written in forever. Oooops! I didn't have the internet at my house for awhile, and now I do so I can start writing again. Anyhow, I am having a grand time with Axton! Being a Mom is even better than I could have ever imagined!! I am enjoying all the time I am spending with Cody and Axton! Cody has been home with me the entire time I have been out on maternity leave because he dislocated his elbow a week before Axton was born and can't return to work until March 8th. I figured out the other day that I can stay on maternity leave until June 1st if I wanted to. Of course I want to! My dad has some stuff for me to do at home for work so I can put in some hours here and there which will be nice! I am ready to start wearing my old clothes now, but my body isn't...which is upsetting. Why can't you just push out a baby and your body be back to the way it was before you were pregnant? Ugh! Even if my body does get back to the way it was someday, the stretch marks will still remain. Bumma dude. It is all worth it though for my little buddy. I can not believe that Axton will already be one month old on Sunday. Time is going by so fast already!!!!!! Here are some things that I have learned about my son:
1. He has his days and nights mixed up, which means we sleep during the day and are up during the night. Hopefully this changes soon. I try to keep him up earlier at night so that he will sleep later..but he sleeps through ANYTHING. Literally...anything.
2.When he has to poop he swings his arms and goes cross eyed. Once he is done, he is completely content like he had just went through one of his greatest accomplishments. Not to mention he seems to take a poop the second Cody starts holding him.
3.He smiles while he sleeps. Newborns aren't supposed to smile, but he does...when he's sleeping. Don't really know what he is dreaming about. I've even heard him laugh in his sleep a couple times.
4.His hair gets greasy after a day..not even. This means more bath time, which is fun time..he actually enjoys taking a bath, I think.
5.He likes to whiz on Mom or Dad at the most inconvenient times aka public places.
6.He never cries. Really he doesn't. He didn't have a cry until a couple days ago and decided to whip it out for about 5 seconds for no reason?

There, just a few things about Axton. Anyhow, duty calls and Axton is wanting to eat.

My Axton

I just wanted to share the story of the arrival of my son Axton Nathaniel..for it is something that will resound in my heart forever, and I will never forget any of it.

It all started on Tuesday morning when I was having really weird crampy feelings. It was very odd because I was having Braxton Hicks..but very regularly. I had them every 5 minutes, for about a minute each. They weren't like the regular Braxton Hicks that I had been feeling, they were much stronger..but still didn't hurt. I had my doctors appointment on Thursday so I was just going to wait it out to see what would happen. The regular braxton hicks never went away and continued for a couple days. I went to the doctor on Thursday and he said that I was still 80% effaced but I was 4cm dilated. 4 cm dilated!?! I was like..what the heck isn't this when some people get epidurals!? I was just so antsy for him to come but it seemed like he was taking his jolly ole good time...I was just happy that I was making progress. Thursday night I still had the regular braxton hicks and later in the evening they turned into heavy crampy feelings. The heavy crampy feelings only lasted a couple hours..but the doctor wanted me to come in on Friday morning and get checked again. Friday morning I was still at 4cm, but he doctor told me I was definitely in labor. Early labor. The regular braxton hicks continued and I was just so ready to meet him! Saturday Cody and I just had a very relaxed day. Later in the afternoon we went over to Jessie and Max's house and played Wii. My regular braxton hicks still continued and I just wanted them to start hurting..I prayed for them to start hurting. Saturday night they got a little more intense..and when I say that I mean...my stomach would get ROCK hard..not just hard..but they still didn't hurt. Cody and I watched a couple DVD's of planet earth. He was dead tired but I just didn't feel right and I just didn't want to go to bed quite yet. At 11 o clock the braxton hicks started getting period crampy like..and I was just praying they would continue to get worse. They did. It was about 12:30 and I called my mom and told her what was going on, and called my sister and told her. I told them that I was just going to hang out to see what was happening and see if they got any worse. They did. They say that sometimes you can go into false labor, and if you lay down you can tell the difference. If you are in true labor, the contractions do not go away, if you are in false labor, they will. I layed down and the next contraction I had was SO much worse than the others. I got up walked down the stairs, had another contraction 4 minutes later in which really caught me off guard. I called the hospital to ask them if I should come in since they were about 3 to 4 minutes apart and lasting from 50 to 60 seconds. She asked if I could talk through my contractions....and I said..well yes...and she said..well you can come in and get checked if you want and we'll just go from there. So my mom came to pick Cody and I up and off we went to the hospital. We got there at 3am, the nurse checked me and I was at 5cm. She called Dr. Sorenson to seek advice as to what to do with the situation. He said that he didn't want to admit me just yet..and to monitor me for 3 to 4 hours and check me again at that point. I walked the halls and still had the contractions in which were getting stronger. I took a bath in the amazing whirlpool tub..but I was much more fond of standing during contractions instead of laying. At 6am, the nurse checked me again and I was at 6cm. She said that when she was checking me she felt something weird. She could definitely feel Axton's head, but there was something else that she didn't know what it was. She called the doctor again and he said he would come in and check me. He came in at 7am, and I was 8cm dilated!!!!! (the little thing she was feeling was his finger by his head I guess? But it wasn't there anymore when the doctor checked. Anyways, I was 8cm dilated and was soooo happy that I had made that much progess in such little time. I was very adament about going all natural...and I was just so happy that I had made it that far already. The contractions at 8cm were way more intense than the ones in the beginning, but the time inbetween contractions I was dancing and singing in the halls..and I'm sure no one would have guessed I was in labor. An hour later the nurse
came to check me and I was 9cm. During this whole process I was dealing with my contractions standing up, walking around that kind of thing. When the nurse had to check me, I had to lay down and the contractions during that time made me wish I was dead. Laying down during contraction + me = wanting to die. At that
point the contractions were getting prrrrreeetty unbearable. My water still had not broken..so I was just waiting for that to happen as well. My mom, sister, Cody and Cody's mom,Missy were all there with me to help me through everything. The contractions were getting REALLY REALLY absolutely disturbingly horrible
and at that point I was thinking in my head that going all natural was the stupidest idea I have ever had in my life. Unbearable. I knew that to make it through I had to be really mind strong and just focus and get in the zone. And that is what I did. I thought that maybe the whirlpool in the last stretch would feel nice so the nurse filled the tub. I got in and was out within 15 seconds. Not for me that is FOR SURE. It was about 10am, the doctor came in and said he was going to start to get set up. He wanted to break my water since it hadn't yet. I had to lay on the bed to do this. This means that I REALLY wanted to die. After he had broken my water...I felt like my life was ending. Literally. I was SO exhausted and I literally did not think my body could handle one more contraction. The nurse needed to take my blood pressure and I could not even lift my arm, I was BEAT. I was not even getting breaks inbetween my contractions. They would last 45 seconds or so..but they were back to back on top of each other with MAYBE a 10 second break before the next one began. The doctor told me that I had to lay down to deliver. I begged and pleaded with everything in me to let me deliver standing up cuz laying down was SO unbearable..but I knew that was rather unrealistic and if he felt more comfortable delivering with me laying down then I would much rather do it that way. I had a little tiny bit left to dilate before I could start pushing. These last moments of my labor before I could start pushing were actually very special to me. Granted..I wanted to die..and I thought I was dying. Everyone in the room new that I had hit my wall long before then, and were just giving me silence before I could begin to push. I had a couple of the worst contractions I had felt yet...and after that it was showtime. I started pushing at 10:25am. I was actually VERY relieved when I could start to push. I would feel a contraction come on, then start pushing. While I was pushing I didn't feel the contraction anymore because I was so focused on pushing. It felt SO relieving not to feel those dumb things..not saying that pushing felt like nothing because that definitely was not the case. Everyone got so excited when they saw Axton's full head of hair! They kept telling me, OH MY GOSH CAITLIN HE HAS SOOOO MUCH HAIR! Everyone else got to see his hair but me! It was such an unreal feeling to know that I was going to meet my son any second. His head came out and I got to see him for the first time. My stomach filled with butterflies and soon enough he was on my belly and I was holding my pride and joy. The child that I had been growing for 9 months..and what seemed like the whole reason for my existence on earth. I was instantly in love. I was so exhausted and so glad everything was over with, and SO glad that I finally had my son in my arms.
Cody cut his umbilical cord and it was just such an emotional time for everyone there. I couldn't believe it. Axton was FINALLY here! I loved watching everyone meet him for the first time. I just couldn't get over that HE was inside me that WHOLE time. Duh there was a baby in there..but it just was sooooo crazy to think about once he was out. Axton was 7 pounds 6 oz and 19 inches long. My labor in total was only 12 hours, and I pushed for 35 minutes. My contractions started at 11pm Saturday night, and he came into the world at exactly 11:00am the next morning. Cody and I enjoyed every second we got to bond with him at the hospital. They kept encouraging me to sleep and take advantage of the nurses ability to watch him while I sleep. Excuse me, if you could please tell me how to shut my brain off...have someone watch my son that I had been waiting 9 months to
meet, and not cry at the thought of him leaving my arms..then maybe I would have considered. We came home Tuesday night and I have been loving every second of being a mommy! Being Axton's mommy! I love seeing all the silly faces he makes, hearing
the ridiculously loud farts this little man has coming out of him, just EVERYTHING. I am so blessed in the fact that everything went so smoothly. I followed my birthing plan..and made it all natural. He is as healthy as can be, and I just can NOT get enough of him. I love with with allllll my heart and cannot wait to watch him grow.

Meet the love of my life :)

Doctors Apt. 1/14/2010

Well this morning I had an appointment at 9:45. It was my second weekly appointment. Last week when I went to my appointment, he did a cervical exam and my cervix was "mid consistency." Before you can start to dilate, your cervix has to soften. My cervix was halfway softened at that point. This morning my doctor told me that I didn't need a cervical exam since last week my cervix wasn't even fully softened, but he would give me one if I was curious as to my progress. Well DUH I wanted to know my progress!!!! Last week my cervix was high up, closed and halfway softened. This week my cervix is fully softened, 80% effaced, and I am 2cm dilated!!!! Before you go into labor, your cervix is really thick. As you go through the process, it thins out, which is called effacing. 100% effaced is paper thin..and thats eventually where you need to be. I cannot believe that in 6 days I effaced 80% already..leaving me with only 20% left to go! And 2cm dilated!!!! Oh my gosh. I know that people can be dilated up to a 2 or 3 for awhile with nothing happening..so I didn't wanna get my hopes up..but the doctor said that if I progressed THAT much in just 6 days..he would not be surprised at all if I didn't make it to my next appointment. HECK YES! Lucky doctor got to feel Axton's head, but soon I will be able to hold my little man and love him up every day!

FOR SALE

For Sale:

What: 2 Spare Tires
Where: Around each of my ankles
Why: Not wanted, really ugly
When: ASAP
How Much: Fricken Free
Your use for them: Who gives just make them disappear.

Pumpin Gas

Yesterday evening after work I went to the gas station. My low fuel light was on..so it was a must. I HATE getting gas when it is so stinking cold outside. It is honestly one of my least favorite things to do. Besides folding laundry..which used to be one of my favorite things to do. Regardless, this is how the pumping gas situation unfolded to make my experience even better.

I am standing there freezing cold waiting for my tank to fill. I can feel my snot freezing, and I can feel my back start to throb even worse from shivering. I notice a man next to me pumping gas as well. He is staring at me. He is staring at me and won't stop. He is continuing to stare at me and I don't understand why. I make direct eye contact with him conveying the look of death and why the hell are you looking at me. He smiles and says, "did you uh, did you uh...ummm....smuggle a basketball under your coat this evening? bahaha"

Yes idiot. I smuggled a basketball under my coat. Thanks for asking.

For Real!?!??!

30 Days until stinkin delivery! I can't believe it! I reeeeeeeeally hope he comes early because I cannot handle this madness. I feel as if he is suffocating in there because there is NO room for him to move. I feel like he is already 10 pounds. Obviously..he probably isn't..but it REALLY feels like he is.

I'M READY AXTON!!!!!! COME ON OUT!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO MEET YOU!