Whadda ya do?

***Lets just say that I wear my slippers at work. Yes, why yes I do. Why can't I? I mean, I work for my Dad, and its quite the casual setting, I wear Cody's clothes everyday due to mine not fitting..wearing slippers won't hurt anybody! It was approaching 5pm and I went to change out of my slippers into my sneakers. Let me just say that my sneakers are from my freshman year in highschool (due to the fact that my chucks just do not cut it being 35 weeks pregnant) and are very large for my feet. I never wore them because they are floppy and make my socks go under my feet when I walk which I HATE! Well, surprise surprise I couldn't get my effing foot even IN these "too big" shoes. I left work yesterday at 5pm and was having the worst WORST WOOORST shocking pains down my leg. Just my right leg, not my left leg. What the h. This is bogus. I get home and all I wanted to do was to take a shower and go. to. bed. I couldn't help but notice my massive feet..wait let me rephrase that..massively swollen PURPLE feet..and ankles no where to be found. SEXY.

***I woke up earlier than usual this morning. My alarm clock goes off at 7:30am and I push snooze every 10 minutes until 8:20. Cody LOOOOOOOOVES this. I can't help it. Honestly....there isn't anything I can do about it. Sometimes I'll push snooze for 3 hours if I can put off plans for the day. Regardless, Cody had to work this morning at 9, so he had to leave for work at 7:45. He woke up late and was in a big rush. So being the nice girlfriend that I am, I woke up with him and got his lunch together and made him breakfast while he showered and got ready. This may seem overly nice, but in all actuality...Cody usually works at 11, so he gets up EVERY morning with me early, even on his days off. He gets my lunch together, makes me breakfast, starts my car to have it nice and toasty before I leave, and sometimes even gets my stinkin outfit for the day put together (considering they are HIS clothes). I was just returning the favor :) That is one time for me to 500 for him. Anyhow, I was having a good morning up until my drive to work. I'm cruisin on the road and this truck starts swerving over to my side of the lane up ahead. Ummm...WHAT THE! There was no where for me to go? I got super scared. THEN as this vehicle gets closer I realize that this human (couldn't actually even see if it was a man or woman or alien) didn't take the time to scrape off their car. Okay, been there done that YES, but this was extreme. This vehicle was COMPLETELY covered, and it looked as if this person took their coffee mug, stuck it to the windshield on the drivers side for about 2 seconds to make a peep hole, and took off on their destination. HELLO PEOPLE! THIS IS NUTS! I was irritated. And glad I survived the 2 second passing of this truck.



Okay, obviously this is like waaaaay more extreme than the truck that I saw this morning, but honestly..not much different. JERK!

I AM EXHAUSTED

Can the next 5 weeks PLEASE consist of napping? I beg of you. It hurts to be not asleep.

Stuck

Just a few things for me to get off my chest and vent about.

1. Job
-I have had a job since I was 15 years old. I think the longest I have gone with out a job was approximately 2 weeks, and I couldn't stand it. I have a very strong work ethic and am a very hard worker. Currently I work at a job in which I do nothing pretty much. I can't stand it. Why? Because I am the bottom of the totem pole. Why? Because I am given nothing to do to prove my work ethic, or to prove that I am a good worker. I sit in a chair day in and day out, answer the phone maybe 4 to 5 times a day, and do paperwork here and there. I don't have daily assignments, I don't have things to do constantly, and I don't have any self worth left in the working department. Sure its nice to not be working my ass off..but in all reality..I would much rather be doing that so I felt like I was worth SOMETHING..or felt like some sort of asset to the job. I worked as a CNA for a couple months before I moved home. Yes, it consisted of wiping butts, and yes I had to do some pretty nasty things. BUT, at least I felt like I was worth something, to the nurses and to the residents. A CNA is the bottom of to the totem pole, but it never felt like it. I knew my job was important. Here? I could fall of the face of the earth and it wouldn't even matter. I can't wait to start school again in September...get a degree..and be back working in a field..or at least with people who show you that they appreciate what you do..no matter what that is.
2. Back/Hips
-My back and hips have been KILLLLLLING me. It is horrible. Sometimes I cry about it because it honestly hurts that bad. I can't sleep at night, and I can't think straight at times. I have been told to go to the chiropractor many times, but I just figured it was just something I had to deal with due to pregnancy. I didn't want to go to the chiropractor and then depend on going..and then have to pay 35 every week because I depended on it. I gave in. I had to do it. I needed some sort of relief from the back/hip pain, I couldn't take it any longer. I called and made an appointment DREADING the fact that I would have to now count this into my money budget. They asked what kind of insurance I had..I told them..and they said I can go completely free? I said...excuse me? Not a penny out of my pocket? "No Ma'am completely free, your insurance covers everything!" IS THIS A JOKE!? Don't get me wrong, I am ecstatic about this..but I find this out 34 WEEKS ALONG!??!???!?!??!!? Anywho, I went and WOOOOOOOOOW!!! I guess my lower sacral bone was locked up on the right side which was causing friction which was causing heat which was causing swelling which was causing it to pinch my sciatic nerve which was causing all of my lower back/hip pain that was unbearable. Yowza! She couldn't believe that I went that long without coming in. How was I supposed to know? I just thought it was another deathly painful thing that comes with pregnancy. After she adjusted me I felt like I was walking on a cloud not joking. I felt IMMEDIATE pain relief. The sucky part about it is that being pregnant makes it that much easier for it to lock back out of place. So I gotta go in every 4 days now. Do I mind? HECK NO! ITS FREE! I'll come in everyday if you want me to lady!
3. Clothes
-Do I have any that fit me? No
-For the ones I do wear do they look nice? No they look like shit
-Do I look like a hillbilly sometimes with my stomach sticking out the bottom? yes.
-Do I feel like buying more clothes to wear for 5 weeks? definitely a negatron.
-Am I counting down the days to wear my regular clothes? Oh wow yes.

Then and Now

10 Years Ago



1.) How old were you? 11 (Although I think this pic is a year older?)
2.) Where did you go to school? Baldwin Woodville Middle School
3.) Where did you work? Wasn't old enough for a job yet.
4.) Where did you live? In Baldwin by Windmill Park
5.) Where did you hang out? My house, Ashley's house
6.) Did you wear glasses? I started wearing glasses when I was in 2nd grade, so yes.
7.) Who was your best friend(s)? Ashley Langer, Bridget Oswald, Danielle Baldys
8.) How many tattoos did you have? Zilch
9.) How many piercings did you have? I believe I had 4, two in each ear.
10.) What car did you drive? Huffy Speed Bike
11.) Had you been to a real party? Negatron
12.) Had your heart broken? Tanner Weiss broke my heart in 5th grade when he "left" me for a 4th grader.
13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter:probably single. But probably had a million different crushes.


5 Years Ago


1.) How old were you? 16
2.) Where did you go to school? Baldwin Woodville High School
3.) Where did you work? McDonalds woot woot
4.)Where did you live? Birch Street Woodville
5.) Where did you hang out? My house, school sport gatherings for cheerleading.
6.) Did you wear glasses? Yes and No. Had glasses and contacts
7.) Who was your best friend(s)? Ashley Langer, Jamie Speer
8.) Who was your crush? I believe I was dating Neal at this point.
9.) How many tattoos did you have? Zero
10.) How many piercings did you have? I had 7 in my ears, and my belly button.
11.) What car did you drive? Grand Prix with a nice dent in the front passenger fender.
12.) Had you had your heart broken? yes, but probably had broken more.
13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter: Taken

Now



1.) How old are you? 21
2.) Where do you work? Qmetro (www.qmetro.com) visit it sometime eh?
3.) Where do you live? Woodville
4.) Where do you hang out? Mostly my place, I don't like moving around very much. Otherwise my sisters or my mothers.
5.) Who is your best friend? Mmm well I would say Amber or Ashley. I don't get to hang out with either of them nearly as much as I would like.
6.) Do you talk to your old friends? a handful of them.
7.) How many piercings do you have? I've actually taken a lot of mine out, but I currently still have 7 in my ears, my nose, monroe, lip, belly button that is currently not in and getting stretched by the minute.
8.) How many tattoos? I have a floweryish tattoo on my right arm done by my brother, I have leaves that fall down my back from my top left shoulder to my lower right love handlish area, I have swirls on my left arm that will eventually continue downward on my back and around the leaves someday, I have flowers on my ribs that have been given miracle grow the last 8 and a half months and now are much bigger flowers, and also a very pretty tree thingy on my left foot.
9.) What kind of car do you have? 2007 Red Chevy Cobalt. Newly formed crack in the windshield due to a semi who thought he would kick a rock back at me and make me nearly shit my pants.
10.) Has your heart been broken? Very much so.
11.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter? Very much taken by the best boyfriend in the world, Cody :)

Freak

I am officially a freak. Well, maybe not, but I think so. I am obsessed, and I mean OBSESSED with Grey's Anatomy. I know that many people are, but please let me just elaborate on my personal obsession with Grey's Anatomy. First of all, I never started watching Grey's Anatomy until my sophomore year in College. My roomate Amber and I borrowed Season 1 and 2 from a friend. We started watching it, were addicted shortly after, and realized that it was dramatically effecting our 1) schoolwork 2)sleep <-- this more than anything else 3) Sanity 4) Ability to function without thinking of Grey's Anatomy. Knowing this was a serious problem, we decided to put Grey's Anatomy on hold for a bit. That "bit" was way longer for me than it was for her. I moved home in July, and it wasn't until 2 and half weeks ago that I realized that my mom had season 3 of Grey's Anatomy. Welllllllllllllll, I brought it home, and finished it in 3 days. Every night Cody and I watch a movie before we go to sleep, and that is exactly why I get netflix. We loooooooooove the variety of movies that we get to watch and we pick out movies together to put on our queue. Well when I was watching episode after episode of Season 3, I thought he was going to kill me. He never said that, but I could just sense it. But I'm pregnant, irritable..and he knew better than to tell me that I could not watch Grey's Anatomy any more. I accidentally added Season 4 to my netflix queue....and moved all 6 discs to the top of the queue...ooooops. Well when Grey's Anatomy season 4 started arriving in our mailbox everyday instead of you know..the movies we picked out..I knew I was in trouble. I just smiled and fluttered my eyelashes, told him how much I oh so dearly love him...and of course I got away with it! I finished season 4 in 4 days. Schedule during 4 days went as follows:
Alarm goes off 45 minutes earlier than usual to fit in an episode before work.
Work until 5.
Get home at 5:30
Skip making dinner to fit in an extra episode of Greys Anatomy
Watch Grey's Anatomy until bed. Which is usually 9, but these 4 days was 11 or 11:30.
Repeat.

Needless to say, I don't think Cody was out of line when he asked me to PLEASE watch season 5 INSTANTLY on netflix instead of getting them sent in the mail. Considering this wasn't an option for season 4, I decided it wouldn't be such a shab idea. Dual screens at work, one for grey's anatomy, one for work. Brilliant! I spent this whole past week watching grey's anatomy. Well Tuesday through Friday. Allll day. I usually work until 5. But I stayed at work sometimes until 8. Grey's Anatomy is getting the best of me, and I have no objections. On Friday, Cody picked me up from work and I told him he had to stay an extra 23 minutes because thats how much was left of the episode I was on. I only had 4 episodes left and I could NOT wait until Monday to finish season 5. Last night I came to my moms to watch it online, but only had time for 2 episodes which left me two more for today. I just got done with the last episode of Season 5 and WOWWWWWWWWWWWW. I just can't believe that whirlwind of emotions that Season 5 put me through. WOW. Now I'm dying..DYING for Season 6 which is currently on air. My mom told me that you can watch them on ABC so I OBVIOUSLY went there ASAP to start on season 6. THEY ONLY LET YOU VIEW 4 EPISODES AT A TIME AND THEY ARE THE NEWEST 4...NONE FROM THE BEGINNING OF SEASON 6 ARE YOU KIDDING ME. I write you this while I am waiting (already about an hour) for the first episode of season 6 to continue downloading on this site that apparently takes forever to download. I can wait a couple minutes, then watch about 30 seconds of it, but that got old real fast. Now I'm just trying to occupy my time while I continue to patiently wait for it to finish downloading so I can watch and put my heart back at a normal pace. Thank you and have a good night.

So Stinkin Excited!

The time left in which I have left to wait to meet Axton is getting SOOO much shorter! I can't convey to you how excited I am!!! On Friday, I found out that a family friend that is due February 3rd..her water broke!!! Now, if you don't remember, my due date is February 4th so basically, this freaked me out! After work I went home and spent 4-5 hours in Axton's room and now its ALMOST complete. Everything has its place now, and I figured out exactly what I still needed. On Saturday I went mini-shopping and got the rest of everything that I need. The only things I have left is a car seat cover and a diaper bag. Not too bad eh? I have looked at a couple different places for car seat covers and every single one is just ugly. I don't like it. At babies r us, they had a couple different ones, but the only one I liked was 40 bucks and I didn't even like it that much. I want one that goes over the whole car seat and has a hole in the middle with the option of zipping it shut. Aka, it having a flap so you can view your cute little ones face. Not one that just has a permanent hole in it so the whole car seat cover is pointless, and not one that doesn't have a hole in it at all. Call me picky, but a mom knows what a mom wants. As far as a diaper bag, I'm just real picky. I actually found a couple that I really liked at burlington coat factory (they actually have a lot of cute ones there!). I'm sorry folks but you will NEVER see me carrying around some pooh bear bag. Not my thang. Just because I'm going to be a mom doesn't mean I have to start dressing like one and having everything I own be pooh bear or toy story. I want to get a diaper bag that looks like a purse, so I can use it for both. Yes, it will be a ragingly big looking purse, but who gives. There is no way that I can carry a purse around AND a diaper bag...oh AND a baby! And just because I'm having a boy, that doesn't mean I have to get a diaper bag that has airplanes on it. Geesh. I have some that I really like. Let me show you.

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See, Plenty of cute options for diaper bags that don't have airplanes or pooh on them. I'm just not going to tell you how expensive they are. Now the bag with the skulls on it..a bit extreme for a diaper bag...I agree, but I really just do love this knapsack. And it really is a diaper bag. My baby shower that my mom and sister put on for me was AMAZING! I had sooo much fun and got soo much great stuff for Axton! Honestly, I hardly had anything left that I even needed to get. I feel sooo much better now that his room is finished. Cody said to me last night.."isn't a bit early to be nesting?" Give me a BREAK! Its NEVER too early to get prepared! I procrastinate at EVERYTHING...but not this my friends, not this. I told myself early on...I WILL be prepared....and now..I AM prepared! Yay!! Now I just gotta wait around for him to wanna come meet me. Last week (maybe earlier actually) I felt him have the hiccups for the first time. I thought it was the cutest thing!! Now he gets the hiccups at LEAST 3 times a day not joking. I mean, how annoying is that? Not for me, for him. I don't mind feeling his hiccups, I think its cute minus when it feels like it is right by my butthole, then its a little weird. Okay long post = bored people reading it. I will post pictures of his room soon, but I want to make sure I have everything just perfect before I put pictures up.

Conversation

Cody and I eating dinner. I am sitting and my boobs are resting on my stomach and my stomach is also forcing me to sit with my legs spread due to the fact that it is large and in charge.

Caitlin: Ugh this is getting ridiculous. Why is this happening.
Cody: Umm..babe, its what happens when you are growing a child inside you.
Caitlin: Well why can't I sit on an egg like a bird or something.
Cody: Would you really enjoy sitting on an egg day in and day out?
Caitlin: If it would mean not tossing and turning at night, not farting every two seconds, vein filled boobs and inability to shave myself then it would honestly be a toss up.

Rando's

Well, I have a couple of things that I wanted to share, but they all have nothing to do with each other. So that's why I named this one rando, cuz its very random stuff. First off I would just like to say that I LOOOOOOOOOOOVE my new apartment. Today is one week since we have moved in and oh my gosh, I love it. It is so nice to have my own place again. Cody and I agreed that he could decorate our room, and the bathroom upstairs (which is right next to our room which is a loft). I get to decorate everything else. Our kitchen, bathroom downstairs, living room etc all look so nice and then you go upstairs and all you see is....posters. Skating posters. Beer posters. Black light posters. The bathroom...filled with posters. I have no problem with this, because we had an agreement. However, it is a tad overwhelming. I've never lived with a gentleman before, so I guess its a bit different then living with a girl/girls. The thing about Cody is that he is very anal about things, which means he is a neat freak. I like neat freaks, because then I'm a neat freak. Every single poster is perfectly straight and all of them are perfectly placed. We soon get to start decorating Axton's room and we are getting so excited for this! I absolutely HATE hanging up clothes. I have so many clothes, and they were all in garbage bags. Heck if I'm going to bend over time and time again to grab an item of clothing and then hang it up. Its called, mad heartburn, backache like heck which equals cranky Caitlin. Cody said he would hang my clothes up for me, but he's a guy. I'm not sure if there is a WRONG way to hang up clothes, but I'm sure a guy could probably manage finding one. My mom and sister came over the other night to help hang up pictures (something else I HATE doing) and help unpack the last of the stuff. I basically sat back and watched my sister organize all my stuff, and hang up all my clothing. I'm not sure if she enjoyed doing this because she actually does like unpacking, or if she just liked gandering at all my clothes she knows I can't wear so she can jack them for the time being. Regardless, she brought along chunky monkey (Luca). I was afraid that Luca would pee all over my nice tan carpet so I made him wear a diaper. Not joking. It was very entertaining.

Now, let me please note that Luca will only lay like this for Jessie, not anyone else. When I try to pick him up he wiggles in every which direction and goes nuts! I wish he would cuddle with me like he does with her :(
I think thats it. This weekend is opening hunting and Cody will be gone :( Well I'll still see him, but weekends are the only time we get to spend the day together because I work during the day Monday through Friday and he works 1st or 2nd so it always varies. His family holds a pancake feed Saturday night of opening weekend. A huge breakfast at 7 at night? Count me in!!!!!!!!!

Lava

Dear Heartburn,
I'm not joking when I say that I really dislike you. You can't just show up whenever you want, I absolutely do not approve of that. Since there is no way to get around this, I just ask that maybe you decide to sprout while I'm sleeping and I don't have to feel you.

Thank you kindly,
Caitlin & Axton

Yay!

So many exciting things are coming up in the next couple months I can't stinking wait! Let me elaborate, I'll even go in order!

Tomorrow/Friday:Cody and I FINALLY move into our new apartment!!!!!!!! For one, I very weirdly really really love unpacking. I HATE packing, but LOVE unpacking. Finding a place for everything, and getting settled in a new place is the BEST feeling! For two, I can't WAIT to get started on Axton's room! CLICK HERE to see the crib bedding and all the decorations with it that I have to make Axton's room JUST PERFECT!
Saturday: I am venturing to Waukesha for my baby shower that my best friend Amber is throwing me! It will be sooooo much fun to see all of my friends that I never get to see anymore!!!! It will probably be the last time I make the trip there for a while, at least until Axton is a couple months old. Then we'll make the trip so everyone can meet him :) The car ride will probably be a tad rough, but it will be worth it!!
Sunday: Will consist of unpacking only...which is so amazingly fun!

November 26th: Thanksgiving! I really really love food a lot, and this holiday seems to have the best of it! Turkey? Wow. Mashed Potatoes? Wow. The Gravy? My absolute FAVORITE! My Grandma Carolyn makes the BEST turkey gravey!!!!! Buns? WOW! Not only will I be loving every second of this feast, Axton will be too :)

November 27th,28th,29th: My brother TJ and his girlfriend Catherine are coming to visit! They live in South Dakota and I don't get to see them nearly enough!

November 29th: This day is my baby shower that my sister and mom are throwing me! It will be so exciting to see how much everyone already loves Axton by all the gifts and love all around! That will be so fun, but not as great as seeing everyone! I really love living at home and being close to family, but it seems like I am such a bum that I never can make time to see them :( I mean, I get EXHAUSTED trying to tie my shoes, so after work, all I want to do is relax and enjoy a good movie. Thats why I am looking forward to my shower so I can see everybody I love all at once! (Minus the gentlemen because they aren't cool enough to attend these sort of events!)

December 24th, 25th: Christmas Eve and Christmas!!! I looooove Christmas spirit! I love driving around and seeing everyone's lights on their houses and Christmas trees lit in the front windows! Stores decorated for Christmas, the whole shabang!

December 31st/January 1st: New Years! Granted, I will mostly likely fail at staying up until midnight to welcome the new year, but I am going to try really hard! This upcoming year for me is going to be MUCH different than all the rest. I will be a mother, and will strive to be a great one at that! The new year brings a new chapter in my life, and I can't wait for it to all begin!

Mid January/Beginning of Feb/Unknown date and time exactly: AXTON COMES INTO THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think of this daily, and CAN NOT WAIT! Oh my goodness, gives me goosebumps just thinking about it! Everyone is really excited to meet this little guy, but Cody and I are especially excited to meet him, and to start our little family :)

February 15th: MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! I think at this point all I will really want is some sleep, but who knows ;)

Axton in the Making

28 weeks along! Yowza! Time is sure going by fast. Sometimes not fast enough, but I have a lot to do still so I guess the time left is much needed. I loved seeing my little buddy during my 3D and 4D ultrasound session. It made me feel that much more attached to him. I love him sooo much already, and can't wait to give him kisses :) You can click on the picture to make it bigger to take a closer gander if you wish.

Sun, Really? No, that was just a tease.

I am so sick of it being cloudy outside. It is getting depressing. It seems like it makes the day go by so much slower, and its just not even fun to look outside. As I am sitting here in this office, bored off my a-hole.. a pinch of sun started shining in the window. I couldn't believe it! 10 minutes later...its cloudy again. Ugh.

P.S. I still really want Frankie.
P.S.S. 2 weeks from today Cody and I get to move into our apartment.
P.S.S.S. I have found out that lately when people use sarcasm with me, I do not like it. I think its a being pregnant thing.

I am so sad :(

This is Frankie with his new haircut!!!!!!!!!!!! I am very happy that they finally decided to give him a nice haircut so he could be free of matted fur, but it also made me very sad. I really really want Frankie. I can't describe how much I want Frankie. Sometimes adopting dogs can really cost a lot of money! I have some money saved up for a doggie, but Frankie is out of my budget. Frankie is 375 dollars! I bet he is worth every single penny. Since Cody and I really want Frankie, I decided that I was going to keep pinching my pennies to save up for Frankie and hopefully he would still be available by the time I had enough money saved up. The sad part is that I don't think I will have enough money for a long while :( Yesterday I bought I REALLY nice couch and had to dig into my saving money. I need a couch, and this was such a good deal, and such a nice couch that I really could not turn down the opportunity. Even though while I was writing the check I knew it meant Frankie was even further away. I was already sad yesterday about this, and then today I got an e-mail that Frankie's page was updated so I OBVIOUSLY went to go check it out. Then I see his new hair cut. Then my heart melted. And then I felt like crying. And then I realized that now that he looks even CUTER, he will probably get adopted even FASTER! Sad, Sad day.

Frankie!!!!!!!!!!

I WANT FRANKIE!!!!!!!!!
He looooooves kids
He looooooves cuddling and attention :)
He is potty trained
He lives in a stupid dog pound now and is waiting for me to rescue him
He is about 2 years old
I really really really really really really want him
He will look SOOOOO cute after he gets the haircut he really needs.
After he gets the haircut he really needs, he will be sooo happy and be running around very freely and so happy! I want to see him do that!
I really want Frankie
I hope Cody says Yes!

Weekend/Monday Extravaganza!

I shall start with Friday. (This may be a long blog, sorry in advance, but hey, I'm not forcing you to read it!)

Friday:
On Friday I worked the usual 9 to 5 and let me tell you. The 9 to 5 seemed like a 6am to midnight shift. It took FOREVER! I didn't mind looking at the pretty snowfall until I had to leave work and drive in it. It really wasn't THAT bad, but the first drive out in the snow is just kind of scary. Especially now that I am pregnant I am extra paranoid about driving in the snow. Ask anyone, I drive worse than a grandma in the wintertime! Even when it isn't necessary what so ever! It gives me anxiety I can't help it! I went to my sisters to borrow some movies and also ate some Subway. MMMMM I loooove subway so much. I used to hate it. Well let me back track a tad. You see, I worked a subway for quite some time...and so after I stopped working there I couldn't bare to eat it since I had eaten it so often when I had worked there. I took about a 3 year break from Subway and just fell in love with it all over again like I was before I started working there. I have eaten it stinkin like 5 times in the last 2 weeks I bet. BMT Monetary Cheddar bread with cheddar cheese, lettuce, tomatoes, onions, mayo and vinegar. Wow my mouth is watering. Next subject please. Then I drove to Menomonie to meet Cody at his house after he got done with work. We started watching Night at the Roxbury, but I can not stay awake watching a movie for longer than an hour max. Therefore, Cody and I always have to split up our movies. Half and half. Bahaha, the joys of having me as a girlfriend I bet. We went to bed actually pretty early (earlier than usual that is) because we had to get up super early on Saturday morning to head to Milwaukee to get all of my stuff.
Saturday:
My Saturday morning was SUPPOSED to start at 4:45am. Cody pushed stinkin END instead of SNOOZE on his alarm so we didn't get up until 5:43. Waking up in a panic that freakin early was not ideal for me. Brian Moe (good family friend/Mom's boyfriendishthing) was leaving at exactly 5am with the truck and the trailer to head to Milwaukee. Cody and I drove separate because I just didn't feel like a pregnant lady sitting in the middle seat of a truck uncomfortable for that long would be something I was interested in. Anyways, we were 45 minutes behind when we were supposed to leave and I was so frightened he was going to get there before us! We got on the road and started our journey to Milwaukee. Now, in case you are wondering why we were going to Milwaukee to get my "stuff" let me elaborate. I was living in Milwaukee prior to me living in my home area now. I am on a lease for a house in Milwaukee currently, and it is not done until May. Sucks butt. But regardless, I wanted to move home to be close to family during this time and also for when baby Axton is born! My family is very important to me, therefore I wanted to have them very near through such an important time in my life. It isn't my favorite thing to do when I have to write a check out for rent on a place I don't even live at, but such as life. It is worth it to be able to be close to my fam. Anyhow, I still had basically everything I own at this house besides my clothes. (In fact I even still had MORE of that there still. I have A L O T of clothes) Since Cody and I are moving into an apartment relatively soon...in the next 15 daysish....I needed to go get all my stuff so our apartment wouldn't be empty. The road trip went dandy and we actually beat Brian to my place! Imagine that! I didn't even have to stop and take a pee once the whole trip can you believe it!? Anyways, when we got there I still had a lot of packing to do so I did that while Cody and Brian packed the truck and trailer nice and tight with all my precious belongings! They worked very well together! I am glad that Brian could help me out with all of this. He is always willing to help my family out whenever we need it! Its nice to have a male figure in my life I can always count on! (Well, besides Cody of course!) We got back to Menomonie at exactly 5:20! I know that we got back at exactly 5:20 because Cody and I had made a bet. I have made the drive from Milwaukee to home PLENTY of times and can pretty much guess the exact time I will be back...to the minute basically. Cody said we would be back at 5:30 and I said...nah...either 5:19 or 5:20. He thought I was ridiculous and I was just saying 5:19/5:20 to be a smartass but really it was my serious estimate time of arrival. We put a piece of tape over my clock in my car so we couldn't cheat (aka speed up the driving or slow down the driving) We pulled in the parking lot and took the tape off and it said 5:19 and one millisecond later turned 5:20.
GOSH
I
AM
GOOD.
Cody nearly pooped his pants but I told him very early on...I am mostly always right.
Sunday:
Sunday we met up with Brian to unload everything at my Mom's house for the time being. Slightly frustrating because we were SUPPOSED to move into our apartment on the 1st..so we were just going to keep everything packed so we wouldn't have to unpack and pack it twice. However, our plans didn't go through as we wanted and we cannot move in until the 15th. The lady thought she was be kind (after already being unkind by telling us she changed the date to the 15th) and say that we can move in Friday the 13th. For one..creepy. For two, good thing I'll be in Waukesha that weekend for my baby shower and I won't even be able to move in. COOOOOL! Regardless, after they unpacked the stuff while I sat and watched thinking how nice it is not to be allowed to lift really heavy things, we went over to my sisters house for Sunday Funday duh! <--- this has been a tradition since I have moved home. She takes my weekly pregnancy picture every Sunday as well. I am trying not to post ANY pictures of my belly this month so that when I am 7 months along and post the updated series picture, I will be very very much larger.
Monday:
I actually slept really good last night which is really surprising considering Cody's brother was very loudly listening to TECHNO music ALLLLLL night long. I'm talkin, techno music until like 4am. Really dude? Is that necessary for survival I think not. I was going to go give him a nice little..."I'm pregnant...really need my sleep..and REALLY don't like every wall shaking with the massively loud BUMP to every bass beat" However, I refrained. It is not my apartment, and it is not my place to complain. So I made Cody do it. bahaha. Anyhow, this morning I had my monthly doctors appointment. I just went to the doctor last Friday for my hearing issue I'm having. Let me catch you up my good luck that I have with EVERYTHING. For one, I have had ear problems my ENTIRE life...but as I have gotten older...it has gotten a lot better. However, from all my ear problems I have had in the past, I have lost quite a bit of hearing in my right ear. Anyways, I have been fighting this disgusting sinusitis for about a month and a half now and it just doesn't seem to be going away. Fine, I can deal with that. However, the last 2 weeks have been absolute HELL because I can not hear a single thing. When I say that, I am not joking. I am typing on the keyboard right now, and I cannot even hear the clicky keyboard sounds. I can BARELY hear the phone ring, and when people are talking to me...I really do not hear most of what they are saying. The word "what?!" has increased in my daily vocabulary by 200%. That is why I went to the doctor last Friday. Apparently my sinusitis has caused my Eustachian tubes to swell shut making it impossible for my ear fluid to drain how it is supposed to. Therefore, all this fluid is just hanging out having the time of its life behind my ear drums causing me to hear not a single thing. Awesome. I looooove things like this. He put me on some medicine...which I am not fond of taking medicine while I am pregnant..even if it is pregnancy safe stuff. Regardless, it hasn't done jack squat and the doc told me today that there isn't anything else they can really do. AWESOME. I couldn't eat breakfast this morning because today I got tested for gestational diabetes. I had to drink this orange beverage that was enough to make me vomit all over myself. It was basically like orange pop...without the carbonation..with out the sugar, and with a tinge taste of poop. I got to hear Axton's heartbeat which was 156! When he put the thing on my stomach with the cold gel Axton kicked there immediately, so then the doc lost his heartbeat. Then he put it somewhere else and Axton kicked it out of the way AGAIN. Basically, Axton must not like the cold gel...and found it amusing for Dr. Sorenson to play..find Axton's heartbeat. :) My little bugger is just going to LOOOOVE coming into the world in February in Wisconsin! I really want to do everything that I can to not get induced and also to not get a C-section. I am going for a natural birth with no medications and have requested for the doc to not even mention such things to me when I'll be wanting them the most. I found out that the test came back positive for gestational diabetes. Poop. Just my luck..AGAIN. I want to do everything I can to keep baby Axton safe so when I go back to the doctor in a couple days for more testing, hopefully we can figure out the best plan of action for me and Axton. No wonder this little guy is a chunker. He's takin alllll the good stuff from me since my body isn't producing enough insulin!
Okay fine I will stop writing now.

Puff

This is puff and I want him. I found him on an adoption site and fell instantly in love. He is the cutest little doggie I have ever seen!!!! However, Puff isn't a good match for me. I already looked into him and I guess....I guess...I'll have to get over Puff. He got saved from a puppy mill and he is very cautious with people. They do not know if he is good with kids or not, and I can't really chance that with baby Axton coming in February. Also, they said Puff needs to go to a household that has another dog that he can learn from. Also, he doesn't cuddle and its tricky to even get him to let you hold him. I need a cuddly doggie. Poor Puff. Even though you aren't a good match for me, I still want you to know that I wish you were.

Lying Widget

See the Widget over the on the right hand part of my screen that says "baby will mostly sleep this week" BS! I have never felt Axton so active in the entire 6 + months that I have been pregnant! I am not complaining, because I really do love feeling my little buddy gettin real good at his dance moves. I believe it is approximately 11 days until I get to move into my new apartment!
I
CAN
NOT
STINKING
WAIT.

Deedle Dee

I just have a couple random things I'd like to share.

Birthing Class:
On Wednesday I had my first childbirth preparation class that was held at the hospital I am going to deliver at. Since Axton's father chooses to not be involved in his life, my sister came with me for my support person. Cody and my sister will probably switch on and off as far as who comes with me to my classes to be my "support person." As Jessie and I arrived, there was a table with a bunch of stuff on it. We had to make name tags for ourselves and grab a package thing and help ourselves to some juice or water if we wanted. I was the person in the class with the furthest away due date. There was this one lady there that was due in a couple weeks!! There was only one other person that had a due date kind of close to mine and hers was January 25th. You think that we would be relatively matching when it comes to tummy size..but NO! She looked like she was about ready to go any day. I couldn't even believe it! When we all introduced ourselves to each other in front of the class, we had to state our name, our doctor, due date, and if we knew..boy or girl. The woman that had the due date of January 25th that looked ready to pop explained a lot when it was her turn. She was pregnant with twin boys!!! No wonder she looked sooooo much bigger than me!!! It was her first pregnancy, and boy was she in for an experience. Twins! I can't imagine. Anyways...we just did a couple activites, watched a little movie and learned about "warning signs" and things to watch out for. Cody lives about 1 minute from the hospital...so after the class I was going to go right there. Since my sister was on the phone the entire way to the hospital, she couldn't remember how to get back to the freeway. Don't worry...I had to drive my car in front of her to lead her aallllllll the way there. Its the least I could do for such a great sister who is so supportive! (Even though she said that people might think of us as lesbian lovers at this class).
Boyfriend:
I can't even begin to describe to you how thankful I am for Cody coming into my life. I have to give all props to my friend Mandy who set us up on our sort of blind date. I thought she was absolutely crazy. What guy is going to want to start dating a girl that is (at the time) 15 weeks pregnant? After we had hung out a couple times, we definitely liked each other more than just friends. I had to ask him the awkward questions about me being pregnant and if it bothers him...that sort of thing. I have had boyfriends that have been super nice to me, and I've had boyfriends that are just complete jerk wads. I realize that it is not everyday that you come across a guy like Cody. He accepts me for who I am..and accepts me..and my son. He will wake up earlier than I do for work, just to scrape my car for me and get it nice and toasty. He knows that I can't go out and drink, so on Friday nights he is perfectly content staying home with me and watching movies. Since I am growing a human, it seems to swipe out all my energy. I go to bed literally at like 9 or 9:30 every night. I can't stay up much longer than that. Since I go to bed at 9 or 9:30..that means Cody does too. I'm not sure if he just lays there forever while I fall asleep in one second, or if he is now able to actually go to sleep that early too. He rubs and kisses my belly and talks to Baby Axton everyday, and I love that so much. Its insane how supportive he is. Last night he had his head and hands on my belly, and Axton kicked him so hard in the jaw! Wherever Cody put his hand, Axton would kick there. I think babies can sense the heat or something, I guess I'm not sure. If there isn't a chair around, Cody also will put my shoes on for me since bending over is such a task. (of course he does snicker at me a bit when I attempt to get my shoes on myself with out a chair) I am so thankful that Cody wants to be a part of Axtons life, and I'm so thankful that he is as loving and supportive as he is. I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend, honestly.

Today I am going to eat lunch with my Oma and Opa. I have not seen or talked to them since I have found out I am pregnant. I am kind of nervous, but hope everything will work out fine. I am sure I am going to get asked questions about the "father" and I'm just going to answer honestly. It may not be what they want to hear, but it is the honest truth. I don't have control over whether he wants to be a part of his son's life or not. Therefore, there isn't much I can really do about it. I think schooling will be a topic of importance in our conversations. I am sure they just want to know what my plans are with school and want to make sure my priorities are still in line as far as my career. Besides all of this mumbo jumbo, I am super excited to see them! It has been awhile and I love hearing about what is going on in their lives. Wish me luck!

Ouch!

Captain Crunch is delicious, without the berries. But, is it me or does it really stinkin hurt the roof of your mouth? Geeeeez. I had two bowls for breakfast and wow, my mouth hurts.

Some Things that I love..

I am not a fan of mint. Mint gum, mint mouthwash, mint anything. The problem with this is that most toothpastes are minty. Minus the citrus (gag me) or the cinnamon (its okay but doesn't leave my teeth feeling very clean). This toothpaste here is a lifesaver. It is not minty, but not not minty, just enough minty for me to handle and makes my teeth feel nice and clean. If I was stuck using really minty toothpaste, I would be brushing my teeth with tears in my eyes. Thanks Crest for making such a groovy kind of toothpaste, I love it!

This right here has saved me thus far from any stretch marks. Therefore, I love it. Hopefully it will keep my stomach/butt/thighs/boobs stretch mark free the whole way through!

Man do I love this stuff. My friend Mandy sells Mary Kay and I decided I would try this to see if it would help my pregnancy pepperoni face. Guess what, it definitely helps. To be honest, I didn't really notice a difference RIGHT AWAY, but I did after a week. I use it everyday now, and if I forget for even a day I notice a difference. Maybe its a love hate relationship I have with this product. Stinkin love it because it helps, but hate it because my face looks like poop when I don't use it now. I'm addicted.

Man do I love I-tunes. I really do. I used to use Windows Media Player and it just doesn't even come close to how awesome I tunes is. Call me silly, but it is one of the loves in my life.

Fireplaces. Man. I really do love fireplaces. They are so cozy and warm. I could just sit and do nothing in front of a fireplace for hours! Well, I actually would need to get up and get something to drink and eat, but besides that and bathroom breaks, I really would sit for hours in front of a fireplace. The sound, the smell, and the insane warmth of course! Love it!



I discovered these cookies at Wal-mart a couple days ago. Oh my lanta, I can not describe to you how delicious they are. For one, sugar cookies are really the only kind of cookie I like. I can eat other kinds, don't get me wrong, but only one at a time and not very often. Sugar cookies are a different story. These Vanilla Bean Sugar Cookies are a whole different novel. These things are to DIE for. There was only two packs left..and when I had bought them I noticed it said "limited edition." I figured I would still only buy one pack because I didn't know if I would like them or not. I am kicking myself for this because Cody and I polished this pack of cookies off within minutes, not joking. When we made the trip back to Wal-mart...they were gone. No longer. Non-existent. Limited Time Edition no longer available. Shit!

Tom Hanks. Man do I love Tom Hanks. I sometimes forget how much I actually love him. Not that he's drop dead sexy by any means, but I love watching movies that he is in. I just watched Cast Away the other night and it was the first time in awhile that I watched one of his movies. I fell madly in love all over again. He is just so amazing at acting. He can do every emotion under the sun and amazingly. You've got Mail= great movie. Big=awesome movie. The terminal=killer flick. Cast away=stinkin amazing. You know, now that I think about it, I have never seen Saving Private Ryan. Man I better add that to my netflix list asap.

Tots

I think my tots get bigger by the day. I can honestly say that before being pregnant my chest area was extremely lacking...to say the least. Now?? Wow!!! Yeah, there are some negative side effects to being pregnant (Oh, I dunno...farting everytime you cough or blow your nose?) but these new assets of mine are definitely a positive! I better enjoy them while I can. Rumor has it they go away :( Pooey!!!!! I know, the picture wasn't necessary, but everyone needs a little visual once and awhile!

Bloopdeedoop

This is just simply a piece of chocolate cake that Mina brought me today. I am not a huge fan of chocolate normally, but oooooooh my gosh this was so delicious. I took the first bite and I said out loud..WOW!!!!! Its actually irrlevant really how much I loved this piece of cake, but I just felt like sharing this news with you.

This is my little guy at only 8 weeks, while this next picture is the one where I was 21 weeks! Look at how much he has grown in just 13 weeks!

This is my little buddy :) Right after he got done rubbing his eyes! I love this picture!

My Little Buddy!!!!!

Soooo...I'm going to have a son!!! Yesterday morning I was soo nervous for my ultrasound yet so excited at the same time! My appointment was at 11:30 and my mother and I were there just in time! The lady called my name and I went into the dark room, laid on the bed, and exposed my daily growing belly! The cold jelly goes on, and POP..there my little baby was on the screen! So much bigger than the last time! My last ultrasound was at 11 weeks, and this one I was 21 weeks, so a 10 whole week difference! The whole reason I was getting an ultrasound was to check the baby for birth defects..and just make sure everything was normal. The lady was scanning over my belly for about a half an hour! She looked at every organ possible in every viewing position possible as well as checking measurements of all the different parts of the brain and such! She asked if I wanted to know the gender and I said...Yes...but I want you to write it on this card. We are going to put it in the envelope and open it up tonight with the whole family around. So she wrote it down. Then she said that she just needed one more view of the baby's face to make sure he didn't have a cleft pallet. She could not get a good picture because baby was laying face down! She had me empty my bladder, move around from side to side and it just wasn't doing any good! She then goes...oh well it looks like we did some good, look he's rubbing his eyes! <----SPILLED THE BEANS!!! I totally caught it, and so did my mom. I knew my sister was going to be sad...but it was not my fault!! So when we left, I called her right away and told her that the nurse lady spilled the beans. I wanted to double check to make sure she wasn't pullin our chain so we opened the envelope and sure enough it said boy. So I'm going to have a little baby boy!!! Now I don't have to wonder if I'm going to have a son or daughter in a couple months, I can just know that I'll have a son! I can't wait to meet him, kiss him, and show him how much I love him! I hope he looks like me, that would make things that much more special :) The ultrasound lady had to write a full report on the ultrasound and give it to the doctor for my monthly appointment this morning. I got there and he said, your baby is beautiful! Everything was normal! Which makes me very very happy! I have some pictures I want to show, but I can't figure out how to make it so when I add a picture (if I was to add one right now) how to make it so it doesn't automatically just go to the top?

Boy or Girl?

Today I get to find out if I will have a son or daughter in 4 months! The thought is absolutely crazy. I have no inkling what so ever about what I am having, so it will be such a surprise tonight when I get to open the envelope with the much awaited news. I have been waiting since June 10th for this. June 10th is the day I took the pregnancy test. Everyday since then, I have been wondering if I have a little girl or a little boy inside me. Now that I feel my little love bean kick and squirm around, I wonder even more if its a little girl or a little boy! It will be nice to eliminate one gender so I can really buckle down on names. Its so hard seriously. I change my mind everyday, and everyday it seems that a name gets added or deleted from the list. Here is my list today. For a girl, I really like the names Bryler, Harlow, and Skylar. The whole middle name thing is still up in the air but I have some ideas. For a boy I have really close to nothing. I used to be set on the name Jace, or Jayce, but then when I put it in a sentence like this, "Jace's schedule keeps changing everyday!" it sounds like shit. I don't like saying "Jace's" it sounds dumb. So that one is OFF the list thank you very much. The only boy name currently ON the list is Axton. I have always been set on having the middle name be Nathaniel, after my brother of course. So Axton Nathaniel is the boys name for the day..and maybe it will even stick for 2 or 3. That is...of course depending on what I find out this evening!!!!!

Oooooopsies :)

This morning I accidentally locked my keys in my car. Now, anyone who really knows me knows that I am the master at locking my keys in my car. Meaning, if I go a month without doing so, it is a miracle. There are places in which I do not lock my car and just leave my keys in the ignition. Then there are places in which I lock my car. I should probably just lock my car at all points in time but there are times in which I leave my purse in my car even. (Don't worry I have no money anyways). My spare key is in my purse. So basically..if I accidentally lock myself out of my car, and I left my purse in my car..then I'm screwed! Triple A has been an excellent friend of mine for they have saved me in these sticky situations probably around 20 times. Not even joking. My Dad was already at work this morning when I realized I locked my keys in the car. So I called him and I said.."dad..I did something bad." He said....you locked your keys in your car? Yes sir that is correct could you please come help me? He said..where's your spare? I respond with...umm...in my purse that is in my car? So my lovely father drove all the way back out to the house to get my car unlocked. How nice. He could have just gave me a ride to work with him..but my cell phone was in my car and come on give me a break as if I could just go a full day without that. Get reeeeeeal.

Coughing Spell

I know, I am horrible. I have been slacking an immense amount at writing in this thing. Honestly, its not intentional, and honestly..if I forced myself to write on here it would just be shit. I still don't really have much to write right now, but I could at least be courteous enough to update you on my life. For one, baby is doing very well. I feel little meatball (even though I should start referring to it as meatloaf for it is far bigger than a meatball) moves around all the time and I love feeling it. I get to find out if it is a girl or a boy on Thursday and I just am so excited I can hardly sleep! Well actually I can hardly sleep lately because I have this ridiculous cough that will not go away. I get approximately 2 to 3 hours of sleep every night only because the rest of the time I lay there and cough my brains out. One of the luxuries of being pregnant is that you can't take over the counter medications to soothe such symptoms, instead you just have to deal with them. Awesome! It has been about a week and a half of this coughing spell and I couldn't take it anymore. I was going to wait to talk to the doctor about it on Friday when I have my monthly appointment, but I couldn't wait any longer. I called the doctor today and I was in at 10am. Well a lung infection it was my friends. I got prescribed some baby safe medicine and hopefully I'll feel better in a day or so :) I'm crossing my fingers! This past weekend I went to Milwaukee to get the rest of my clothes. I saw my closet and was instantly in wonderful spirits. Of course, a majority of these clothes probably don't fit over my belly...but still. I am very much enjoying my time with my wonderful Cody, and things couldn't be going better. He joined me on my trip to Milwaukee and we sure had a good time! We didn't really do as much as we thought we were going to, but thats okay :) Due to my lack of sleep, I really didn't have much energy to be gallivanting around anyways. Okay thats good for now.

Good Times, Good Times

I was just browsing through my external hard drive looking at pictures from past times. Drinking ones mostly. I came across some really funny ones. I just need to share them. I forget what it feels like to be three sheets to the wind. I miss my friends :( Don't worry, I'm coming to visit soon, I just have been busy growing a human!

Ashley and I on Spring Fling, drunk at..I had to think about it, and then I remembered we started drinking in our 9am class. Excellence.

Amber and I on her 21st Birthday! I'm drinking Pabst I just know it. I love it.

Beau and I, one of our many drinking nights. But this was Amber R's 21st birthday night

Now this is Amber W's 21st birthday on the Party Bus! Bob wanted to take a picture of me looking my best!

Oh me and my love bean Erin! Her birthday!!

This was an evening with Whitney and Dustin and John. John passed out and I put on his sweatshirt and Grandma Janice's velcro sneaks.

Awww, me and my bestie on her 21st! My eyes were still open slightly at this point.

Andrea and I drinking in a social setting aka on the counter. Both on our cell phones. Typical :)

Andrea and I again, on her 21st Birthday if I remember correctly. Or not correctly. Either way.

This night was fun! This was when us three first moved into our apartment last year and had a "ladies night". Too much happened this evening. Let me try to remember.

1. We got incredibly shitfaced

2.We were dressed in ridiculous outifts

3.The RA came knocking on the door because we were being too loud and Brittany ran to the bathroom to hide and she was so loud running it sounded like a herd of buffalo. I was stuck answering the door in a lime green evening gown, a camo hat, a pink corduroy jacket with white fur on it and brown chucks. Somehow, we didn't get asked if we were drinking..although I'm not really sure what humans would just be wearing this attire sober.

4. We made a cake and licked the frosting off only.

5. Took a million pictures!

6.Knocked down absolutely EVERYTHING in our shower including the shower rod, and curtain as well as putting a huge hole in the ceiling in the bathroom.

This is just an infamous party picture because Brittany looks rather absurd in this one. Well dead sexy really. Super Tan, and Super pretty smile. I laugh really hard everytime I see it. After she saw it, she instantly bought a tanning package. Well I think she had to get it approved by her parents first so she could charge it to her card :)

This was an evening just Brit and I went out, we didn't even expect to get drunk but ended up having a real good time. We have a lot of crazy pictures from this night.

Night of the beverage, "Mess you up's" Delicious really!

afkasdfj!!!!!!!!

This picture is rather irrelevant. I just kind of liked it.

Sorrrrrry!

I know I haven't written in centuries, but that is because I had nothing to write about. Now I can think of a bunch of stuff so here I go!
Last thursday I went to the doctor and I got to hear my baby's heartbeat! My mom came with me to my appointment, so she got to hear her grandbabies heartbeat too! The heartbeat was at 166! The doctor said that the baby kept moving around and was quite the active little one :) In case anyone was wondering, my names currently are, girl: Adeline ___ Jewell. Middle name not figured out yet. Boy: Jace Nathaniel Jewell
Friday night I hung out with Cody and we had a grand ole time. I forget what we did even. We watched a couple movies and then jammed out to some good tunes til the wee hours of the morning. I very much enjoy spending time with this character :)
Saturday I went to a birthday party at my aunt and uncle's house. We were celebrating my papa's birthday, my brother-in-law's birthday, and my uncles birthday. I had so much fun! It was nice spending time with the family because it feels like I never see them. Well I think thats because I really do hardly ever see them. Hopefully that will change soon though! I played my papa in Wii Bowling and I beat him by only a few points! Dinner was absolutely delicious! Afterwards I even accidently indulged in a little nap. Hey come on now, I have a human growing inside of me what do you expect!!! Saturday evening I went over to Cody's and we watched Dirty Jobs, the episode with the reusable diapers. Ohhhhh my goodness how disgusting. I laughed a lot at it though so that made the disgustingness that much better.
Sunday I had my usual day with my sister! We went into hudson and went grocery shopping. Number one rule in grocery shopping, DO NOT GO HUNGRY!!!!!!! My sister was hungry, and we got a little bit more then we meant to. After we went grocery stopping we stopped at Mcdonalds and she got an icecream cone and I got a fruit and yogurt parfait. The fruit was still frozen in the middle but thats how I like it!! Jessie always enjoys her ice cream cones!
I am finally feeling the little baby inside me :) I can't wait until a little later on when the feeling is a bit stronger. It feels like someone is churning butter in my stomach! People always say that it feels like gas or butterflies or something of the sort. I don't think I would describe it as that. I guess I don't really know how I would describe it. I guess I have a sound effect that I could use to describe it but that doesn't really describe it well at all. Especially since you can't hear me when I make the noise. But if it makes you feel any better I just made it and my dad looked at me funny. They say that now the baby's sense of hearing is starting to develop. Ooooh man. I was driving home last night and I was listening to a certain song and man oh man I was just jammin my little heart out until I remembered that my baby could hear me and then I felt sorry for the little one. I can't believe it has to hear my disgusting singing voice everytime I rock out in my car by myself! Ohhh well, must get used to the sound of my voice eventually!!! The other evening Cody had me laughing so hard to the point of tears and after I could regain my breath, I felt so bad because my baby probably felt like I was on a roller coaster or jumping rope because I was laughing so hard! Its really odd thinking of these different things when you're pregnant. I really am noticing my stomach getting bigger more often. Now when I am laying down in bed my belly sticks up a lot and before it wasn't as noticable when I was laying down. I love it :) Sometimes when I am getting ready in the morning I tell the little one jokes, but of course, I don't get a response so I just laugh at them myself and then apologize to baby for having such a weird mommy. I find out the gender on the 24th of September and the time is not coming soon enough that is for sure! Somedays I think, Oh I am for sure having a girl, and other days I think, oh I am for sure having a boy! Either way I will be so happy, and I'm sure finding out it will be the happiest moment of my pregnancy :) Anyhow, Tonight I am going to go out to eat with my mother, and then we maybe are watching a movie?? It seems like forever since I have seen her, and her doggies. Princess and Bailey!!!!!!

Thoughts

I woke up this morning feeling a little funny. I can't really put my finger on the feeling, all I know is that it wasn't the most pleasant one. I had a million things running through my head the second my eyelids opened for the first time today. I have been pregnant for 4 months, and in 5 more months I will have a baby in my arms that is all mine. I don't want to say that it hasn't hit me yet, because it has on numerous occasions. Just today I have been thinking thoughts I haven't really before. This was very much a surprise, and is now taking me down a path I never imagined would be plowed for me at this moment in my life. Sometimes I think, if I only knew this was going to happen now, I would have partied a little harder before, or tried to actually save my money to travel a little bit more, or been that much more adventurous. If I only knew seems to be the beginning of many thoughts this morning. I read how my friends are going back to school in 2 weeks, and how they had so much fun out the night before drinking etc etc etc. The fact is, I'm not upset that I can't do these things right now. I have no problem giving all that up for the health of my baby. I just won't fully realize the extent of how much this is going to change my life until the baby is actually born. I am not ashamed of the fact that I am pregnant, and I would be excited to tell anyone in the whole world that I have a little one on the way. I guess I was just proven to me today that everything happens for a reason. And even if you have your life planned out one way, it doesn't mean its always going to go that way. The only thing you need to remember about living life is exactly just that. You just have to live it. You don't have to plan anything, you don't have to decide anything. You just have to let what happens happens. Know nothing, but know everything at the same time. Say nothing, but say everything at the same time. Be nothing, but be everything. <--- that is something for a completely different blog for a completely different day. Regardless, even though someone may look at my situation as a burden, I just want to say that something like this happening is the exact opposite. What keeps my mind positioning positive, is the fact that I know I will love nothing more then I will love my child. It will be my reason for living, and my reason to live up to my full potential. I already feel this unconditional love for my baby, and I have not even met it yet! Love cannot be explained in words, though I suppose one could try. When I lay in bed at night and I am not quite sleeping yet, but just thinking, I get the mini adreneline rush that feels directly on my heart, and the butterflies in my stomach. And this is the feeling that I get when I am very much reassured that even though this isn't what I planned for myself right now, it will be the best thing that has ever happened to me.