Peep and Low

So just a couple things here.

For one, I just realized today walking down to the first level of the apartment building to do laundry that some of the doors have peep holes and some do not. Our door does not have a peep hole and I always wondered why. Now I am even more questioning this lack of peep hole because some people in this building have that luxury! I usually know exactly who is coming over and when....but every once and awhile that doorbell will ring and I won't have aaaaaaany idea who it is. It would be nice at that exact moment in time to be one of the cool tenants of this building and have a peep hole.

For two, as I was saying I was heading downstairs to do some laundry. Last week I did a mother load amount of laundry because I kept putting it off. HATE doing laundry. This morning before Cody went to work he says..babe I'm out of socks. First off, I don't do "whites" often because if I have to pay a dollar to wash and a dollar to dry, you bet your butt it's going to be a full load. Therefore...we have a separate basket for whites and I don't do them until its full. Or when Cody says he is out of socks. You would THINK that yesterday when he grabbed his last pair in the drawer he would tell me at that point so he would have a pair of socks for today..but that is a big fat negatronathon on that. I really didn't feel like doing laundry today and especially a load of whites because folding socks is just the pits. But as I was putting the laundry in and thinking about how I really didn't want to fold all the socks later... I reassured myself that folding all the socks later was much better then having to wear a pair of dirty nasty socks dug out of the hamper like Cody did. Anyways, I got a little off of topic. My second point in this blog was to actually say that lately every time I go do laundry the temperature setting is on "low". This drives me nuts. Seriously EVERY time. Now who the heck needs to dry their laundry on low every time? I have made the mistake a couple of times of not double checking the temp and then going down an hour later and have my clothes half dry and have to spend another dollar. What a jip! I think someone does it for jokes. Or someone that works for the people we rent from go to all the buildings everyday and resets the temp settings so they can make more money. Either way, dumb!!!!

Squeezin for time

The last couple days I have had the worst mood swings known to mankind. Poor Cody. I'm just a glooming dark cloud over his head I bet. At least I can admit it! I've been so terrible. Anything and everything I just get mad at Cody for...I forgot to push start on the dishwasher-cody's fault. I have a super stuffy nose and can't find a box of kleenex anywhere - cody's fault. Axton pooped 5 times in one day -Cody's fault. Cody gives me his opinion about something or his thoughts- I shut them down in .2 seconds. I'm such a horrible fiance! I've just been rather stressed this past week. My deadline for getting everything done for baby Zaidyn is Friday...and that is coming up rather shortly. I just have a lot of organizing left to do with limited space to do it. I don't have a dresser for her so its been kind of tricky figuring out where to put clothes that don't hang up. I am not nesting what so ever and very much doubt that I will get another burst of energy to "nest". I wish a couple months ago when I got bursts of "nesting" I would have gotten more accomplished. I've been sick, which has also made my energy level even lower then usual. The last couple days I've been getting the regular Braxton hicks, and yesterday was pretty crampy as well. I know every pregnancy is different but with Axton I didn't get the regular Braxton hicks until a day or two before he was born...but that was after I knew I was already dilated to 2ish, and also had lost my mucous plug. At my last appointment he didn't do a cervical check..and this week he is out on vacation (yikes!) but I do have an appointment on Monday where he is going to check me. Who knows, I could be totally off on my "instincts" and she could stay in there cooking for another 4 weeks for all I know. What I do know is that I would really like to have everything done so I don't have to worry about it. Here is my list of things to do prior to friday (so I like to think):

-Finish organizing her clothes

-Clean her room top to bottom

-Finish her crib mobile. Soooo almost done just need to adjust a little something something and hang it.

-Pack hospital bag

-Pack Axton's bag for when I go into labor and he goes to grandmas.

-Clean the apartment top to bottom so I don't have to worry about it later.

-Get last couple things on the list needed at Target/Walmart for baby Zaidyn

-Go through tote of things for baby such as bottles etc..and do rearranging in kitchen to make room in a cupboard for her stuff.

-Fill out and send out thank you cards for baby shower stuff so I don't have to do that once she comes considering then I will have double duty with announcements and such.

Yuck the list is longer then I thought. I need my sister to come over and help me w/ organizing and such. I hate doing it and she likes organizing other peoples stuff.

Bad Math

9 months pregnant lady + not fun diet + extremely high hormone levels + lower back and hips that pop in and out of place constantly + kid with really messy diapers today + really sore throat where it hurts to talk and swallow + a cough that makes my throat feel even worse + a fiance that thinks it is a good idea to have his brother and girlfriend over tonight which is enough to put me over the edge = really...REALLY unhappy lady.

Somebody, please save me.

Two Years Today

Two years ago today, two significant things happened. One was more significant then the other but still both pretty significant.

1. I found out I was pregnant with Axton

2. I kicked my habit of smokin cigs.

How crazy to think that two years ago I was literally shitting my pants at the thought that I was growing a little human inside me, when I didn't even know if I wanted kids!! I was freaking out about how I was going to tell my mom, and I was freaking out about what the heck I was going to do about my internship I just got accepted to take at a hospital in downtown Milwaukee in Radiology. Sooo many decisions had to be made in such a short period of time. On top of the massive amount of stress, I had to kick my habit of smoking. I didn't smoke A LOT..but probably a pack every 3 days? Maybe? I don't recall. Either way, it was a bad time to quit the one thing that relieved stress. Either way, I did it...its been two years and I haven't even had one single pufferoo. I think if Cody ever saw a cig to my mouth anyways, he would be absolutely disgusted and would never want to see me again. This made it very easy to not start smoking again after Axton was born. Speaking of which, last night I had a dream that Cody was smokin cigs behind my back. Quite bizarre because he is absolutely in every way disgusted by cigarettes and would NEVER and I mean NEVER smoke. Regardless..just thought I would share what was going on in my life two years ago today. I think I will probably always remember June 10th.

Updateroozki

Yesterday I had my ultrasound and today I had my follow up doctors appointment. Everything went really well! I loooved seeing her on the screen although it was a bit tricky because at this point in a pregnancy you can't really fit much of the baby on the screen so it was tid bits of her at a time. We did get a really good look at her face and she even stuck her tongue out at us which was SO cute! She definitely has chunky cheeks! So cute! Anyways, I was really curious her size since the doctor said she would probably be putting weight on faster then normal due to the high sugar levels she is exposed to. At my appointment this morning Dr. Sorenson informed me that she is currrently estimated to be 6 and a half pounds already. WHAAAAAAAAAAT! Obviously that is give or take because it can't be EXACT through an ultrasound but still. I could potentially have 5ish weeks left! She would be HUGE! Doctor thinks most likely I will go early, and he wouldn't stop labor if it happened anytime after 36 weeks. That is in a week and 2 days. I'm not saying I am going to go into labor at exactly 36 weeks because I doubt that...I'm just saying that if I DID...nothing would stop her arrival and that is in a week and a half!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I would prefer her to wait until 37 weeks, that gives me a little more time. Maybe she will be born on my Mom's birthday, wouldn't that be fun? Great birthday present, a granddaughter! My placenta is welllllll away from my cervix so that isn't an issue at all anymore. Which is relieving. Doc and I went over my documentation of my blood sugar levels etc and instead of testing 6 times a day he said I only have to check 3 times a day. Or 4? Jeesh now I can't remember and that is kind of important. Dang prego brain! My next appointment is a week from Monday. He is going on vacation next week so he wants to see me right when he gets back. Sounds good to me. Also, while I was in the waiting room at the clinic, I was gandering outside and all of a sudden an old man is going down the middle of the the road (main street mind you) on a riding lawn mower with his oxygen tank attached to the back along with a sign that says "gittn r done". I literally almost shit myself. If that doesn't make one feel like they really do live in the middle of bumfuck wheatfieldville, I don't know what would. I finally got Cody to paint my toenails last night. It look A LOT of convincing for a couple weeks at least. I couldn't take it anymore, and he finally gave in. It was just the cutest thing. He was being so precise and trying to do such a good job. A) I have like NO nailpolish choices and every single one I do is so old. Therefore, the polish was like..clingy weird stringy like. B) Cody didn't realize that he was working with the worst possible polish. C) When I would give him tips on how to do it, he would reply saying that he knows what he is doing because he touches up cars at work all the time. SO the same thing, right? Anyways, the end result was mediocre. My right foot looks pretty okay, my left foot looks like shit! Nail polish all round the nail and ugh, just terrible! I told him he did a GREAT job though of course! He is so sweet!!!! Just love him to pieces I tell you!

This weekend was a rather fun one!

Saturday I had a baby shower that Cody's Mom put on for me. It wasn't really a "shower" but more of a family get together in which we celebrated the fact that Cody and I are expecting another little baby. Guys and girls were there, and it was a really fun day. We didn't play any baby shower games or any of that...we just had a great lunch, opened presents and hung out! It was great! It started at 3, and we didn't get home until 8:30 or so! It was nice for Cody to be able to hang out with his family since he doesn't get many days off. It was the PERFECT weather outside. Sunny, but sooo nice in the shade and a nice cool breeze! My kind of day! Axton loved playing in the yard and throwing the frisbee. He did get a little boo boo on his nose and forehead, but that is just what comes with being a kid! A curious one!

Sunday we had a family get together out at my dads house. We hardly ever get together out there, and when we do its always a grand time. Great big yard for Axton to run around in and boy does he take advantage of it! He loves playing with the dogs, and he especially hit jackpot when he found a giant wind chime attached to a tree. These two days of family get togethers didn't help my diet much, but I did okay. Nothing too extreme :/

Today I brought Axton to the waterpark for the first time this summer. For one, why is it so dang expensive? Why would 1-3 year olds be 3 dollars to get in? They can't even go past the shallow part..therefore are not taking up any room on the water slides etc, and don't even require the attention of the lifeguards because their guardians are obviously right next to them at all times making sure they are okay. What a jip I say. It was 8 bucks for the two of us to get in. Since Axton is still rather little...its not like he can spend ALL day at the water park to make the 8 bucks sorta worth it. We were there for 2 hours and that was pushing it. He was ready for a nap, there were a million people there, and I was blazin hot. I would have loved to just lay in the pool and enjoy the cool water but nope....had to chase Axton around since he loves going in every which direction in and out of the water sitting then standing then over by the fountains then in mommy's lap. Exhausting! It wouldn't be so bad if going from sitting to standing/standing to sitting wasn't so difficult. I also have had the worst and I mean WORST heartburn for the last 24 hours that will NOT go away no matter what! I slept soooo horrible last night because my heartburn was making me miserable as well as the fact that I had a pounding headache that wouldn't subside. Heartburn is manageable for me, I just pop some tums and it goes away right away. But not the last day and a half no siree! It wants to just keep creepin up and burn every shred of esophagus possible for as long as possible.

Tomorrow Cody and I get to see our little Zaidyn again! We have an ultrasound at 3:30 and I can't wait to see her! They want to A) Check for the last time the position of the placenta. B) Check on her size since babies exposed to high blood sugar levels put on weight faster. I quite frankly don't care what the reasoning, I'm just glad I get to see her again! I'm ready to see her in real life, not just on a screen! But since she is the one who determines when she will make her entrance into the world, the screen will have to do for now! Then on Wednesday I have a follow up doctors appointment to discuss the ultrasound and also start my weekly visits. My doctor is going to be on vacation my 36th week, so this week is kind of taking place of my 36th week. Wait that doesn't make sense. I'll be 35 weeks on Friday, but I think he's going to be on vacation next week? Who the heck knows what the heck is going on.

The Scoop. The 1/2 Cup Scoop that is..

My appointment with the dietitian went really well. I really learned a lot and will be able to apply it to my eating habits currently pregnant and afterwards. I guess mostly I learned correct portions and when during the day is best for me to have how many servings of carbs. Before, I would eat a crap ton of breakfast because that was the only time during the day I was actually hungry. The rest of the day I could care less if I would eat and I would basically have to make myself. The reason for this is because I would eat so much at breakfast raising my blood sugars threw the roof making so my body wouldn't trigger "hunger" because my sugars remained high for a long time. When she checked my blood sugar level yesterday it was supposed to be under 120 and mine was 166. We basically decided I would monitor my blood sugar 6 times a day. Before and after each meal. Keep record, and also keep record of what I eat/how many servings of carbs per meal or snacktime. Since I haven't been technically "diagnosed" with gestational diabetes, the doctor said that I have to test my blood sugar level right away in the morning and if in the next week there are a total of 2 times that it is high before breakfast then I would get the diagnosis. This morning I tested right away before breakfast, and my level was 79, and it is supposed to be between 60 and 95. Usually, AFTER I have my feast of a breakfast my levels are between 150-200, when they are supposed to be under 120. I have to admit that this morning when I had to start my whole "portion/carb control" business..I was pretty disappointed. I had ONE egg, ONE piece of toast..with WATER. I am allowed 1-2 carb servings for breakfast...and she suggested I stick with one since my body is particularly sensitive to sugars in the morning. Since I am so used to eating anything and everything old country buffet style for breakfast...the ONE egg and ONE piece of toast felt like it was feeding my right arm. Surprisingly though, I did feel full. An hour later I tested my blood sugar to see if it was under 120 and it was 99. So I guess this whole diabetes thing can be controlled via diet..which is really good considering poking myself 6 times a day to check my sugar levels is enough needle for me. I told the dietitian that I have a huge sweet tooth..well actually I think I worded it that every single one of the teeth in my mouth is a sweet tooth. So I asked her what I can do about that because I will NEED some sort of sweet. So my nighttime snack can consist of either a pudding cup, 1/2 cup ice cream, or 17 teddy grahams. NOT 18 teddy grahams okay...17. I have to keep reminding myself that this is potentially short lived. I am 34 weeks today, and in 3 weeks Zaidyn could come at anytime and none of this will matter anymore. However, I hope to find this diet thing sticking so when I want to lose my baby weight it will help a lot.

P.S. I just made 2 loaves of banana bread that are pretty much a waste because that is something on my diet plan that is NOT included. Unfortunately.