Stuck

Just a few things for me to get off my chest and vent about.

1. Job
-I have had a job since I was 15 years old. I think the longest I have gone with out a job was approximately 2 weeks, and I couldn't stand it. I have a very strong work ethic and am a very hard worker. Currently I work at a job in which I do nothing pretty much. I can't stand it. Why? Because I am the bottom of the totem pole. Why? Because I am given nothing to do to prove my work ethic, or to prove that I am a good worker. I sit in a chair day in and day out, answer the phone maybe 4 to 5 times a day, and do paperwork here and there. I don't have daily assignments, I don't have things to do constantly, and I don't have any self worth left in the working department. Sure its nice to not be working my ass off..but in all reality..I would much rather be doing that so I felt like I was worth SOMETHING..or felt like some sort of asset to the job. I worked as a CNA for a couple months before I moved home. Yes, it consisted of wiping butts, and yes I had to do some pretty nasty things. BUT, at least I felt like I was worth something, to the nurses and to the residents. A CNA is the bottom of to the totem pole, but it never felt like it. I knew my job was important. Here? I could fall of the face of the earth and it wouldn't even matter. I can't wait to start school again in September...get a degree..and be back working in a field..or at least with people who show you that they appreciate what you do..no matter what that is.
2. Back/Hips
-My back and hips have been KILLLLLLING me. It is horrible. Sometimes I cry about it because it honestly hurts that bad. I can't sleep at night, and I can't think straight at times. I have been told to go to the chiropractor many times, but I just figured it was just something I had to deal with due to pregnancy. I didn't want to go to the chiropractor and then depend on going..and then have to pay 35 every week because I depended on it. I gave in. I had to do it. I needed some sort of relief from the back/hip pain, I couldn't take it any longer. I called and made an appointment DREADING the fact that I would have to now count this into my money budget. They asked what kind of insurance I had..I told them..and they said I can go completely free? I said...excuse me? Not a penny out of my pocket? "No Ma'am completely free, your insurance covers everything!" IS THIS A JOKE!? Don't get me wrong, I am ecstatic about this..but I find this out 34 WEEKS ALONG!??!???!?!??!!? Anywho, I went and WOOOOOOOOOW!!! I guess my lower sacral bone was locked up on the right side which was causing friction which was causing heat which was causing swelling which was causing it to pinch my sciatic nerve which was causing all of my lower back/hip pain that was unbearable. Yowza! She couldn't believe that I went that long without coming in. How was I supposed to know? I just thought it was another deathly painful thing that comes with pregnancy. After she adjusted me I felt like I was walking on a cloud not joking. I felt IMMEDIATE pain relief. The sucky part about it is that being pregnant makes it that much easier for it to lock back out of place. So I gotta go in every 4 days now. Do I mind? HECK NO! ITS FREE! I'll come in everyday if you want me to lady!
3. Clothes
-Do I have any that fit me? No
-For the ones I do wear do they look nice? No they look like shit
-Do I look like a hillbilly sometimes with my stomach sticking out the bottom? yes.
-Do I feel like buying more clothes to wear for 5 weeks? definitely a negatron.
-Am I counting down the days to wear my regular clothes? Oh wow yes.

Then and Now

10 Years Ago



1.) How old were you? 11 (Although I think this pic is a year older?)
2.) Where did you go to school? Baldwin Woodville Middle School
3.) Where did you work? Wasn't old enough for a job yet.
4.) Where did you live? In Baldwin by Windmill Park
5.) Where did you hang out? My house, Ashley's house
6.) Did you wear glasses? I started wearing glasses when I was in 2nd grade, so yes.
7.) Who was your best friend(s)? Ashley Langer, Bridget Oswald, Danielle Baldys
8.) How many tattoos did you have? Zilch
9.) How many piercings did you have? I believe I had 4, two in each ear.
10.) What car did you drive? Huffy Speed Bike
11.) Had you been to a real party? Negatron
12.) Had your heart broken? Tanner Weiss broke my heart in 5th grade when he "left" me for a 4th grader.
13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter:probably single. But probably had a million different crushes.


5 Years Ago


1.) How old were you? 16
2.) Where did you go to school? Baldwin Woodville High School
3.) Where did you work? McDonalds woot woot
4.)Where did you live? Birch Street Woodville
5.) Where did you hang out? My house, school sport gatherings for cheerleading.
6.) Did you wear glasses? Yes and No. Had glasses and contacts
7.) Who was your best friend(s)? Ashley Langer, Jamie Speer
8.) Who was your crush? I believe I was dating Neal at this point.
9.) How many tattoos did you have? Zero
10.) How many piercings did you have? I had 7 in my ears, and my belly button.
11.) What car did you drive? Grand Prix with a nice dent in the front passenger fender.
12.) Had you had your heart broken? yes, but probably had broken more.
13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter: Taken

Now



1.) How old are you? 21
2.) Where do you work? Qmetro (www.qmetro.com) visit it sometime eh?
3.) Where do you live? Woodville
4.) Where do you hang out? Mostly my place, I don't like moving around very much. Otherwise my sisters or my mothers.
5.) Who is your best friend? Mmm well I would say Amber or Ashley. I don't get to hang out with either of them nearly as much as I would like.
6.) Do you talk to your old friends? a handful of them.
7.) How many piercings do you have? I've actually taken a lot of mine out, but I currently still have 7 in my ears, my nose, monroe, lip, belly button that is currently not in and getting stretched by the minute.
8.) How many tattoos? I have a floweryish tattoo on my right arm done by my brother, I have leaves that fall down my back from my top left shoulder to my lower right love handlish area, I have swirls on my left arm that will eventually continue downward on my back and around the leaves someday, I have flowers on my ribs that have been given miracle grow the last 8 and a half months and now are much bigger flowers, and also a very pretty tree thingy on my left foot.
9.) What kind of car do you have? 2007 Red Chevy Cobalt. Newly formed crack in the windshield due to a semi who thought he would kick a rock back at me and make me nearly shit my pants.
10.) Has your heart been broken? Very much so.
11.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter? Very much taken by the best boyfriend in the world, Cody :)

Freak

I am officially a freak. Well, maybe not, but I think so. I am obsessed, and I mean OBSESSED with Grey's Anatomy. I know that many people are, but please let me just elaborate on my personal obsession with Grey's Anatomy. First of all, I never started watching Grey's Anatomy until my sophomore year in College. My roomate Amber and I borrowed Season 1 and 2 from a friend. We started watching it, were addicted shortly after, and realized that it was dramatically effecting our 1) schoolwork 2)sleep <-- this more than anything else 3) Sanity 4) Ability to function without thinking of Grey's Anatomy. Knowing this was a serious problem, we decided to put Grey's Anatomy on hold for a bit. That "bit" was way longer for me than it was for her. I moved home in July, and it wasn't until 2 and half weeks ago that I realized that my mom had season 3 of Grey's Anatomy. Welllllllllllllll, I brought it home, and finished it in 3 days. Every night Cody and I watch a movie before we go to sleep, and that is exactly why I get netflix. We loooooooooove the variety of movies that we get to watch and we pick out movies together to put on our queue. Well when I was watching episode after episode of Season 3, I thought he was going to kill me. He never said that, but I could just sense it. But I'm pregnant, irritable..and he knew better than to tell me that I could not watch Grey's Anatomy any more. I accidentally added Season 4 to my netflix queue....and moved all 6 discs to the top of the queue...ooooops. Well when Grey's Anatomy season 4 started arriving in our mailbox everyday instead of you know..the movies we picked out..I knew I was in trouble. I just smiled and fluttered my eyelashes, told him how much I oh so dearly love him...and of course I got away with it! I finished season 4 in 4 days. Schedule during 4 days went as follows:
Alarm goes off 45 minutes earlier than usual to fit in an episode before work.
Work until 5.
Get home at 5:30
Skip making dinner to fit in an extra episode of Greys Anatomy
Watch Grey's Anatomy until bed. Which is usually 9, but these 4 days was 11 or 11:30.
Repeat.

Needless to say, I don't think Cody was out of line when he asked me to PLEASE watch season 5 INSTANTLY on netflix instead of getting them sent in the mail. Considering this wasn't an option for season 4, I decided it wouldn't be such a shab idea. Dual screens at work, one for grey's anatomy, one for work. Brilliant! I spent this whole past week watching grey's anatomy. Well Tuesday through Friday. Allll day. I usually work until 5. But I stayed at work sometimes until 8. Grey's Anatomy is getting the best of me, and I have no objections. On Friday, Cody picked me up from work and I told him he had to stay an extra 23 minutes because thats how much was left of the episode I was on. I only had 4 episodes left and I could NOT wait until Monday to finish season 5. Last night I came to my moms to watch it online, but only had time for 2 episodes which left me two more for today. I just got done with the last episode of Season 5 and WOWWWWWWWWWWWW. I just can't believe that whirlwind of emotions that Season 5 put me through. WOW. Now I'm dying..DYING for Season 6 which is currently on air. My mom told me that you can watch them on ABC so I OBVIOUSLY went there ASAP to start on season 6. THEY ONLY LET YOU VIEW 4 EPISODES AT A TIME AND THEY ARE THE NEWEST 4...NONE FROM THE BEGINNING OF SEASON 6 ARE YOU KIDDING ME. I write you this while I am waiting (already about an hour) for the first episode of season 6 to continue downloading on this site that apparently takes forever to download. I can wait a couple minutes, then watch about 30 seconds of it, but that got old real fast. Now I'm just trying to occupy my time while I continue to patiently wait for it to finish downloading so I can watch and put my heart back at a normal pace. Thank you and have a good night.

So Stinkin Excited!

The time left in which I have left to wait to meet Axton is getting SOOO much shorter! I can't convey to you how excited I am!!! On Friday, I found out that a family friend that is due February 3rd..her water broke!!! Now, if you don't remember, my due date is February 4th so basically, this freaked me out! After work I went home and spent 4-5 hours in Axton's room and now its ALMOST complete. Everything has its place now, and I figured out exactly what I still needed. On Saturday I went mini-shopping and got the rest of everything that I need. The only things I have left is a car seat cover and a diaper bag. Not too bad eh? I have looked at a couple different places for car seat covers and every single one is just ugly. I don't like it. At babies r us, they had a couple different ones, but the only one I liked was 40 bucks and I didn't even like it that much. I want one that goes over the whole car seat and has a hole in the middle with the option of zipping it shut. Aka, it having a flap so you can view your cute little ones face. Not one that just has a permanent hole in it so the whole car seat cover is pointless, and not one that doesn't have a hole in it at all. Call me picky, but a mom knows what a mom wants. As far as a diaper bag, I'm just real picky. I actually found a couple that I really liked at burlington coat factory (they actually have a lot of cute ones there!). I'm sorry folks but you will NEVER see me carrying around some pooh bear bag. Not my thang. Just because I'm going to be a mom doesn't mean I have to start dressing like one and having everything I own be pooh bear or toy story. I want to get a diaper bag that looks like a purse, so I can use it for both. Yes, it will be a ragingly big looking purse, but who gives. There is no way that I can carry a purse around AND a diaper bag...oh AND a baby! And just because I'm having a boy, that doesn't mean I have to get a diaper bag that has airplanes on it. Geesh. I have some that I really like. Let me show you.

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See, Plenty of cute options for diaper bags that don't have airplanes or pooh on them. I'm just not going to tell you how expensive they are. Now the bag with the skulls on it..a bit extreme for a diaper bag...I agree, but I really just do love this knapsack. And it really is a diaper bag. My baby shower that my mom and sister put on for me was AMAZING! I had sooo much fun and got soo much great stuff for Axton! Honestly, I hardly had anything left that I even needed to get. I feel sooo much better now that his room is finished. Cody said to me last night.."isn't a bit early to be nesting?" Give me a BREAK! Its NEVER too early to get prepared! I procrastinate at EVERYTHING...but not this my friends, not this. I told myself early on...I WILL be prepared....and now..I AM prepared! Yay!! Now I just gotta wait around for him to wanna come meet me. Last week (maybe earlier actually) I felt him have the hiccups for the first time. I thought it was the cutest thing!! Now he gets the hiccups at LEAST 3 times a day not joking. I mean, how annoying is that? Not for me, for him. I don't mind feeling his hiccups, I think its cute minus when it feels like it is right by my butthole, then its a little weird. Okay long post = bored people reading it. I will post pictures of his room soon, but I want to make sure I have everything just perfect before I put pictures up.

Conversation

Cody and I eating dinner. I am sitting and my boobs are resting on my stomach and my stomach is also forcing me to sit with my legs spread due to the fact that it is large and in charge.

Caitlin: Ugh this is getting ridiculous. Why is this happening.
Cody: Umm..babe, its what happens when you are growing a child inside you.
Caitlin: Well why can't I sit on an egg like a bird or something.
Cody: Would you really enjoy sitting on an egg day in and day out?
Caitlin: If it would mean not tossing and turning at night, not farting every two seconds, vein filled boobs and inability to shave myself then it would honestly be a toss up.

Rando's

Well, I have a couple of things that I wanted to share, but they all have nothing to do with each other. So that's why I named this one rando, cuz its very random stuff. First off I would just like to say that I LOOOOOOOOOOOVE my new apartment. Today is one week since we have moved in and oh my gosh, I love it. It is so nice to have my own place again. Cody and I agreed that he could decorate our room, and the bathroom upstairs (which is right next to our room which is a loft). I get to decorate everything else. Our kitchen, bathroom downstairs, living room etc all look so nice and then you go upstairs and all you see is....posters. Skating posters. Beer posters. Black light posters. The bathroom...filled with posters. I have no problem with this, because we had an agreement. However, it is a tad overwhelming. I've never lived with a gentleman before, so I guess its a bit different then living with a girl/girls. The thing about Cody is that he is very anal about things, which means he is a neat freak. I like neat freaks, because then I'm a neat freak. Every single poster is perfectly straight and all of them are perfectly placed. We soon get to start decorating Axton's room and we are getting so excited for this! I absolutely HATE hanging up clothes. I have so many clothes, and they were all in garbage bags. Heck if I'm going to bend over time and time again to grab an item of clothing and then hang it up. Its called, mad heartburn, backache like heck which equals cranky Caitlin. Cody said he would hang my clothes up for me, but he's a guy. I'm not sure if there is a WRONG way to hang up clothes, but I'm sure a guy could probably manage finding one. My mom and sister came over the other night to help hang up pictures (something else I HATE doing) and help unpack the last of the stuff. I basically sat back and watched my sister organize all my stuff, and hang up all my clothing. I'm not sure if she enjoyed doing this because she actually does like unpacking, or if she just liked gandering at all my clothes she knows I can't wear so she can jack them for the time being. Regardless, she brought along chunky monkey (Luca). I was afraid that Luca would pee all over my nice tan carpet so I made him wear a diaper. Not joking. It was very entertaining.

Now, let me please note that Luca will only lay like this for Jessie, not anyone else. When I try to pick him up he wiggles in every which direction and goes nuts! I wish he would cuddle with me like he does with her :(
I think thats it. This weekend is opening hunting and Cody will be gone :( Well I'll still see him, but weekends are the only time we get to spend the day together because I work during the day Monday through Friday and he works 1st or 2nd so it always varies. His family holds a pancake feed Saturday night of opening weekend. A huge breakfast at 7 at night? Count me in!!!!!!!!!

Lava

Dear Heartburn,
I'm not joking when I say that I really dislike you. You can't just show up whenever you want, I absolutely do not approve of that. Since there is no way to get around this, I just ask that maybe you decide to sprout while I'm sleeping and I don't have to feel you.

Thank you kindly,
Caitlin & Axton