Stuck

Just a few things for me to get off my chest and vent about.

1. Job
-I have had a job since I was 15 years old. I think the longest I have gone with out a job was approximately 2 weeks, and I couldn't stand it. I have a very strong work ethic and am a very hard worker. Currently I work at a job in which I do nothing pretty much. I can't stand it. Why? Because I am the bottom of the totem pole. Why? Because I am given nothing to do to prove my work ethic, or to prove that I am a good worker. I sit in a chair day in and day out, answer the phone maybe 4 to 5 times a day, and do paperwork here and there. I don't have daily assignments, I don't have things to do constantly, and I don't have any self worth left in the working department. Sure its nice to not be working my ass off..but in all reality..I would much rather be doing that so I felt like I was worth SOMETHING..or felt like some sort of asset to the job. I worked as a CNA for a couple months before I moved home. Yes, it consisted of wiping butts, and yes I had to do some pretty nasty things. BUT, at least I felt like I was worth something, to the nurses and to the residents. A CNA is the bottom of to the totem pole, but it never felt like it. I knew my job was important. Here? I could fall of the face of the earth and it wouldn't even matter. I can't wait to start school again in September...get a degree..and be back working in a field..or at least with people who show you that they appreciate what you do..no matter what that is.
2. Back/Hips
-My back and hips have been KILLLLLLING me. It is horrible. Sometimes I cry about it because it honestly hurts that bad. I can't sleep at night, and I can't think straight at times. I have been told to go to the chiropractor many times, but I just figured it was just something I had to deal with due to pregnancy. I didn't want to go to the chiropractor and then depend on going..and then have to pay 35 every week because I depended on it. I gave in. I had to do it. I needed some sort of relief from the back/hip pain, I couldn't take it any longer. I called and made an appointment DREADING the fact that I would have to now count this into my money budget. They asked what kind of insurance I had..I told them..and they said I can go completely free? I said...excuse me? Not a penny out of my pocket? "No Ma'am completely free, your insurance covers everything!" IS THIS A JOKE!? Don't get me wrong, I am ecstatic about this..but I find this out 34 WEEKS ALONG!??!???!?!??!!? Anywho, I went and WOOOOOOOOOW!!! I guess my lower sacral bone was locked up on the right side which was causing friction which was causing heat which was causing swelling which was causing it to pinch my sciatic nerve which was causing all of my lower back/hip pain that was unbearable. Yowza! She couldn't believe that I went that long without coming in. How was I supposed to know? I just thought it was another deathly painful thing that comes with pregnancy. After she adjusted me I felt like I was walking on a cloud not joking. I felt IMMEDIATE pain relief. The sucky part about it is that being pregnant makes it that much easier for it to lock back out of place. So I gotta go in every 4 days now. Do I mind? HECK NO! ITS FREE! I'll come in everyday if you want me to lady!
3. Clothes
-Do I have any that fit me? No
-For the ones I do wear do they look nice? No they look like shit
-Do I look like a hillbilly sometimes with my stomach sticking out the bottom? yes.
-Do I feel like buying more clothes to wear for 5 weeks? definitely a negatron.
-Am I counting down the days to wear my regular clothes? Oh wow yes.