Off the WALL!

It seriously seems as if someone put a dang quarter in Axton tonight. I have never seen him with so much energy. It is almost like someone possessed him with an energy monster and he is going crazy. I just can't believe it. He is screaming at the top of his lungs due to the fact that he looooves hearing himself make extremely loud noises..and he is just being so silly!!!! As much as I absolutely love it when he is being so fun like this and obnoxious..I think my pregnancy hormones get the best of me and it gets to a point where I'm like..OKAY ENOUGH!!!!!!!! The second Cody or I start talking he feels the need to be louder than us to the point where we can't hear each other. When we stop talking..Axton stops making noises. When we start talking..Axton starts again. This is madness I tell you, madness.

School

So I definitely need to get back on the band wagon of school. Not that I WANT to..but since I am paying out of my ass in student loans, it just makes sense to get an actual degree so it is semi-worth it...even though having a degree still won't make paying back student loans worth it to me. With a nursing degree I'll be making a lot more money..but the more money I am making is just going to go towards paying student loans so whats the diff? Ewwwww I hate even thinking about it.

Anyways, so when I first moved home I got on the waiting list for a nursing program in New Richmond. They told me it would probably be about 4 years....but not to let that number scare me because most people on the wait list won't wait around. So actually less than 4 years. Now that I live in Menomonie, it seems rather stupid for me to drive to New Richmond for school when I could just drive to Eau Claire for the nursing program there..that DOESN'T have a waiting list. I have most all of my generals taken care of..thanks to 3 years at Carroll..so I very well could start the nursing program this September. Super exciting! Minus, that is only 2 months after Zaidyn is born! I, for one, am not a fan of leaving Zaidyn in day care for a couple days a week when she is so itty bitty. For two, taking on a hard program while it is just the beginning of getting used to two kids versus one? YIKES! I don't want to over do it, and my family means more to me than school does, but I NEED to get it done with. Cody is working so hard at his 2 jobs, and I just want to finish my end of the deal so he can be spending more time at home with family. I would even love to be the one working and let him have his chance home with the kids like he has given me.
Just lots on the mind lately..but hopefully I'll get some answers soon!

La La La

I guess this really is just a blog to catch up on all the time I've been missing writing. I don't know what my problem is. There isn't a day where I don't think to myself, "oh I should write a blog about that"..yet I write every stinkin 2 months or longer even? I changed the url to my blog for various reasons, and I think ever since I've done that no one reads my blog because they don't have the new url. If no one reads it then I guess that means I can expose my deepest darkest of secrets. JUST KIDDING! Realistically, I would really enjoy if I spent more time keeping up with blogs. It seems this part of my life is just racing by and I would really like to be able to document some of it. I think it would make for a really great day to go back and read all the different events and things that were going on in my life..but mostly the changes in Axton and his different milestones, funny stories etc. If there is anyone out there, just tell me every once and awhile to write a freaking blog. Maybe that will make me write more often. I guess I don't have anything particular to say, but that doesn't mean I'm ending my blog here. I have to at least talk about some stuff!

First off, let me just tell you that my little Axton is not so little anymore. He's the cutest thing I've ever seen. I never think its possible to love him more than I do, but everyday I prove myself otherwise. My heart is just overflowing with love for that boy. It is so much fun watching him grow and learn what things are and make really bad attempts at pronouncing words! Even in just the time that we've lived at our new place, he's grown so much. Ugh, just love him to pieces.

Pregnancy is going alright. I have never been one of those women that truly enjoy being pregnant. I LOVE feeling our little girl move around...but that is it. And speaking of which..she is SO active. I can't believe how active and strong she is already. Axton was never like that! She is just off the charts hardcore. I am 24 weeks along today..so 6 months already! I am really really looking forward to meeting her. I have gone shopping here and there for girl stuff and it sure is fun! Boy's clothes aren't nearly as cute. Every girl outfit you can't help but say "awwwwww!" Needless to say, Cody and I are VERY excited for our daughter's arrival. Her name is going to be Zaidyn Marietta Kahl. Cody and I both like different names, which I am very glad for. Okay so tell me how weird this is..when I found out I was pregnant with Axton I made a HUUUGE list of names, boy and girl-which was when I lived in Milwaukee. My stuff stayed in Milwaukee for 3 or 4 months before I could move it back home. I saw the name Axton somewhere (I can't even remember where), looked up the meaning which is "Peacemaker" and fell in love instantly. Once I found out he was a boy, Axton it was. I never doubted it from that day on. When I did actually go move my stuff back home from Milwaukee, I found the huge list I had made when I first found out I was pregnant. Axton was at the top of the list AND highlighted. Meant to be I tell you. This is the crazy part. I did the same exact thing when I found out I was pregnant this time around. I made a list of names that I liked. (I had to make tons of these little lists to ask Cody how he felt and mostly he said something negative about the name) Anyways..somewhere on the internet I saw the name Zaid and I really loved it. Then I thought that Zaiden Tory would be a perfect name for a little boy and Cody loved it. So we had our boys name set but couldn't decide on a girls name. At first we really loved the name Lila. I was even routing for Lucy for awhile. Then I thought to myself, Zaiden for a girl would be super cute too. I wasn't sure if Cody would go for it, since it would be a way different girls name, sorta exotic like..not a sweet so cute kind of girls name. He LOVED it. I thought that if we used it for a girl we should spell it Zaidyn. I've convinced Cody of this. I am very good at swaying his opinion. Then we found out we were having a little girl! When we moved, I found the list that I had made when I first found out I was pregnant and at the top was Zaiden. HOW FREAKING CRAZY. It's just meant to be. Its a sign! Marietta is Cody's great grandmother's name. Since my middle name is Mary, we thought it was a very good choice! Can't wait to meet our little Zaidyn. At my 19 week ultrasound I did find out that I have a degree of placenta previa, which is a dangerous condition where the placenta grows on the bottom of your uterus instead of the top. There are 4 different levels of it. Low Lying placenta, Marginal previa, partial previa, and complete previa. When I first had my ultrasound they detected that I had a low lying placenta meaning it is lower than usual but it is more than 2cm away from my cervix. I would just need a follow up ultrasound around 30 weeks and maybe another one after that to determine the placenta's placement at that point. If the placenta grew down further then I would need a C-section. It was disappointing news but as long as she was healthy it didn't matter. Then last Saturday I woke up to quite a lot of blood. I was so scared but knew I needed to get to the hospital right away. Since at that point I was 23 weeks they had to wheel me to the birthing suites. I had to get a gown on, and then they were going to first see if a heartbeat could be found. I was so scared, I had already been crying since I woke up, and I just felt so helpless. Once they found her heartbeat, the amount of relief was just indescribable. It wasn't intentional but I really was thinking the worst of situations when I woke up. Even just the thought of losing her was unbearable and now I really just can't imagine what it would be like to miscarry. Once they did two types of ultrasounds they found that my placenta in 4 weeks moved lower and was now 1cm within the cervix. The placenta could tear at any kind of distress or even just because. Doctor said I really have to limit my activity, no heavy exercising (which I SO do everyday), no sex -sorry cody!, and no heavy lifting. I have my next appointment April 5th, and at that point we will schedule another ultrasound. I am hoping it corrects itself, but since it moved downward in 4 weeks, my positive thinking is quickly shattering. If it moves down any more and starts covering the cervix, I could be on bed rest until she's born. BOOOOO for bed rest. That's not even plausible. I have a one year old son, how the heck do you expect me to be on bed rest. Anyways, that's all I need to really say bout that..I've done my research about it and have my concerns but that makes for another blog.

Gaining weight from being pregnant just sucks. I enjoy the belly..I like the look of being pregnant far more than not pregnant. But I don't just gain weight in my belly. It's like this curse. I swear I started gaining weight in my face day of conception. Put it on my ass, my thighs, and heck give me some love handles. But my face? Why oh why? I wish I could be one of those super cute pregnant ladies..but it's just not in the cards for me. This summer I'm going to be a walking sausage. WATCH OUT.

I think one of these weeks I'm going to do a week long blog. I will write a blog about what I make for dinner each night, providing a picture and also a recipe. Why you say? Well because I sure as heck wish someone else would. I'm running out of ideas. I love trying new things, but I don't like complicated stuff. If it something I can barely pronounce and you wouldn't normally find it in my cupboards, then I sure as heck don't wanna make it. I need to get my own blank recipe book and write down everything I make because I find myself forgetting about certain meals. Anyways, don't hold me to this...its just something I've been wanting to do for awhile.

I am honestly going to try to write more. Cody is now into this whole Halo thing which is just super lame. Maybe when he plays I'll make myself write a blog to keep myself occupied.
Until then...Love to all.

New Placeeeee

So we are ALLLMOST done moving. I still have to do some cleaning at the old place, as well as gather all of the stuff left there that is either going to goodwill, my moms for the garage sale this spring, or my step mom's consignment store. I will be SO relieved once I don't have to deal with that anymore! It was really nice to have a full week of being able to move instead of one day....because I honestly don't know how we would have done it all in one day. On the other hand, if we were forced to do it in one day, we wouldn't keep putting things off as well. All I gotta say is I had to move when I was pregnant with Axton, and now I'm moving pregnant this time around. What the heck! I never wanna move ever again until we buy a house!

On a more exciting note, last week we had our ultrasound and got to see our baby for the first time! With Axton I had an ultrasound at 8 weeks, 12 weeks, 23 weeks, and 27 weeks. It made things so much more realistic to see the moving baby on the screen! At first she didn't think she would be able to find out the gender since the baby was in a weird position, but when it came down to it, we found out there is a little girl in there!!! I would have been SUPER surprised if she would have said its a boy because I had aaaaaaaaaalll girl instincts! Her name is going to be Zaidyn Marietta Kahl :) :) I am so excited to meet her! I am 20 weeks so already half way! I hope the second half goes by as fast as the first half did!!

Girl Scout Cookies? YES PLEASE

Girl Scout cookies are my absolute fav! I love when that time of the year comes around and I can order my brains out. I am limiting myself to 4 boxes only this year however. I don't have much room in my freezer :( I always get the thin mints and the Samoas, although when I lived in Milwaukee they called them Carmel Delights? Not sure about the name situation, but name shmame doesn't matter to me, they are just SO good. When I run out of thin mints, I fix my craving with the cobbler thin mint cookies..which taste very similar..but not as good as the reeeeeal thin mints! So tomorrow morning when cookies are in hand, consider me a VERY happy person ;)

Movin and Groovin

So it turns out that I LOOOOVE moving. <-- That is a very much sarcastic statement. I have moved all my stuff soooooooo much since my freshman year in college that I could care less to move ever again. I really really like the place we currently live in, but we decided that we need to downsize a bit, and make some sacrifices. We would like to be able to save money for our wedding, and with baby #2 coming, downsizing seemed to be the only way to be able to do that. The place we are moving is still 3 bedrooms, but it is one level instead of two, and has 1 bathroom instead of two, and one detached garage instead a 2 car attached garage. It might take some adjusting, but in the end it is what is best for us! Our lease wasn't up until June, but with the baby being due July, I really felt I wouldn't want to unpack a million boxes while being ridiculously huge? It has been quite the task finding someone to sublease, but we finally got things worked out. We even get first months rent free at the new place, so that will give us some extra money to get some things for the baby. We find out if the baby is a boy or a girl TWO WEEKS FROM TODAY! I can't believe it! Cody and I are so excited!! My pregnancy seems to just be flying by. A week from tomorrow is my birthday (not that it is relevant AT ALL), on the 23rd I am going to a Alexi Murdoch concert (LOVE HIM!) and we get the keys to our new place on the 21st! We get the keys to the new place a week before we have to be out of our old place. I think this will be really really nice. We don't have to hurry our butts off and move in one day. We can get all the little stuff moved first and save the big important stuff for last. Maybe this way we can manage for Cody not to have to take a day off of work. (Although I LOOOOVE when he doesn't work!) With everything going on this month, on top of packing all of our belonging...moving and settling in our new place...I think the next 2 months are going to fly by! Lots to do! I am just crossing my fingers that everything works out as planned and goes smoothly. :)

MOA

Today was a wonderful outing! My sister, Dexter, Rachel, Sammie, Jessie Walton, and I went to the Mall of America! Usually I am sooo not a fan of the Mall of America. It just is always so busy and its just so unnecessary to go to shop there when you can go to any regular mall and go to the same stores. We wanted a change of scenery, and just wanted some exercise. None of us really had any shopping we wanted to do, which was awesome! (I am a by myself kind of shopper. I am impatient and don't enjoy waiting for other people to try clothes on and browse, so I do myself and them a favor by shopping by myself.) I have not gone clothes shopping in probably 2 years but that is a different story. Anyways, we got TONS of exercise, and I even got to indulge in QDOBA! My favorite fast food joint ever! I went there seriously 3 times a week when I lived by Milwaukee, since they were everywhere and so delicious! They are NO where here except the Mall of America, so I definitely hit jackpot with that one. Watching Axton and Sammie play together is just so cute. Axton sees Sammie and his eyes just light up and he gets the biggest smile...but Sammie wants nothing to do with Axton. Its like, he's already after girls, but she's still in the ewwwwwwwwww boys cooties. She walks so fast, Axton can hardly keep up with her and once he does sneak up on her, she sees him and runs the other way, its hilarious! Anyways, I suck at keeping up with my blog and I have no idea why. I can find time to go on facebook everyday but not to once and awhile write a blog. So I'm going to make an effort to change that. (Even though I say that all the time).