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I guess this really is just a blog to catch up on all the time I've been missing writing. I don't know what my problem is. There isn't a day where I don't think to myself, "oh I should write a blog about that"..yet I write every stinkin 2 months or longer even? I changed the url to my blog for various reasons, and I think ever since I've done that no one reads my blog because they don't have the new url. If no one reads it then I guess that means I can expose my deepest darkest of secrets. JUST KIDDING! Realistically, I would really enjoy if I spent more time keeping up with blogs. It seems this part of my life is just racing by and I would really like to be able to document some of it. I think it would make for a really great day to go back and read all the different events and things that were going on in my life..but mostly the changes in Axton and his different milestones, funny stories etc. If there is anyone out there, just tell me every once and awhile to write a freaking blog. Maybe that will make me write more often. I guess I don't have anything particular to say, but that doesn't mean I'm ending my blog here. I have to at least talk about some stuff!

First off, let me just tell you that my little Axton is not so little anymore. He's the cutest thing I've ever seen. I never think its possible to love him more than I do, but everyday I prove myself otherwise. My heart is just overflowing with love for that boy. It is so much fun watching him grow and learn what things are and make really bad attempts at pronouncing words! Even in just the time that we've lived at our new place, he's grown so much. Ugh, just love him to pieces.

Pregnancy is going alright. I have never been one of those women that truly enjoy being pregnant. I LOVE feeling our little girl move around...but that is it. And speaking of which..she is SO active. I can't believe how active and strong she is already. Axton was never like that! She is just off the charts hardcore. I am 24 weeks along today..so 6 months already! I am really really looking forward to meeting her. I have gone shopping here and there for girl stuff and it sure is fun! Boy's clothes aren't nearly as cute. Every girl outfit you can't help but say "awwwwww!" Needless to say, Cody and I are VERY excited for our daughter's arrival. Her name is going to be Zaidyn Marietta Kahl. Cody and I both like different names, which I am very glad for. Okay so tell me how weird this is..when I found out I was pregnant with Axton I made a HUUUGE list of names, boy and girl-which was when I lived in Milwaukee. My stuff stayed in Milwaukee for 3 or 4 months before I could move it back home. I saw the name Axton somewhere (I can't even remember where), looked up the meaning which is "Peacemaker" and fell in love instantly. Once I found out he was a boy, Axton it was. I never doubted it from that day on. When I did actually go move my stuff back home from Milwaukee, I found the huge list I had made when I first found out I was pregnant. Axton was at the top of the list AND highlighted. Meant to be I tell you. This is the crazy part. I did the same exact thing when I found out I was pregnant this time around. I made a list of names that I liked. (I had to make tons of these little lists to ask Cody how he felt and mostly he said something negative about the name) Anyways..somewhere on the internet I saw the name Zaid and I really loved it. Then I thought that Zaiden Tory would be a perfect name for a little boy and Cody loved it. So we had our boys name set but couldn't decide on a girls name. At first we really loved the name Lila. I was even routing for Lucy for awhile. Then I thought to myself, Zaiden for a girl would be super cute too. I wasn't sure if Cody would go for it, since it would be a way different girls name, sorta exotic like..not a sweet so cute kind of girls name. He LOVED it. I thought that if we used it for a girl we should spell it Zaidyn. I've convinced Cody of this. I am very good at swaying his opinion. Then we found out we were having a little girl! When we moved, I found the list that I had made when I first found out I was pregnant and at the top was Zaiden. HOW FREAKING CRAZY. It's just meant to be. Its a sign! Marietta is Cody's great grandmother's name. Since my middle name is Mary, we thought it was a very good choice! Can't wait to meet our little Zaidyn. At my 19 week ultrasound I did find out that I have a degree of placenta previa, which is a dangerous condition where the placenta grows on the bottom of your uterus instead of the top. There are 4 different levels of it. Low Lying placenta, Marginal previa, partial previa, and complete previa. When I first had my ultrasound they detected that I had a low lying placenta meaning it is lower than usual but it is more than 2cm away from my cervix. I would just need a follow up ultrasound around 30 weeks and maybe another one after that to determine the placenta's placement at that point. If the placenta grew down further then I would need a C-section. It was disappointing news but as long as she was healthy it didn't matter. Then last Saturday I woke up to quite a lot of blood. I was so scared but knew I needed to get to the hospital right away. Since at that point I was 23 weeks they had to wheel me to the birthing suites. I had to get a gown on, and then they were going to first see if a heartbeat could be found. I was so scared, I had already been crying since I woke up, and I just felt so helpless. Once they found her heartbeat, the amount of relief was just indescribable. It wasn't intentional but I really was thinking the worst of situations when I woke up. Even just the thought of losing her was unbearable and now I really just can't imagine what it would be like to miscarry. Once they did two types of ultrasounds they found that my placenta in 4 weeks moved lower and was now 1cm within the cervix. The placenta could tear at any kind of distress or even just because. Doctor said I really have to limit my activity, no heavy exercising (which I SO do everyday), no sex -sorry cody!, and no heavy lifting. I have my next appointment April 5th, and at that point we will schedule another ultrasound. I am hoping it corrects itself, but since it moved downward in 4 weeks, my positive thinking is quickly shattering. If it moves down any more and starts covering the cervix, I could be on bed rest until she's born. BOOOOO for bed rest. That's not even plausible. I have a one year old son, how the heck do you expect me to be on bed rest. Anyways, that's all I need to really say bout that..I've done my research about it and have my concerns but that makes for another blog.

Gaining weight from being pregnant just sucks. I enjoy the belly..I like the look of being pregnant far more than not pregnant. But I don't just gain weight in my belly. It's like this curse. I swear I started gaining weight in my face day of conception. Put it on my ass, my thighs, and heck give me some love handles. But my face? Why oh why? I wish I could be one of those super cute pregnant ladies..but it's just not in the cards for me. This summer I'm going to be a walking sausage. WATCH OUT.

I think one of these weeks I'm going to do a week long blog. I will write a blog about what I make for dinner each night, providing a picture and also a recipe. Why you say? Well because I sure as heck wish someone else would. I'm running out of ideas. I love trying new things, but I don't like complicated stuff. If it something I can barely pronounce and you wouldn't normally find it in my cupboards, then I sure as heck don't wanna make it. I need to get my own blank recipe book and write down everything I make because I find myself forgetting about certain meals. Anyways, don't hold me to this...its just something I've been wanting to do for awhile.

I am honestly going to try to write more. Cody is now into this whole Halo thing which is just super lame. Maybe when he plays I'll make myself write a blog to keep myself occupied.
Until then...Love to all.