Boy or Girl?

Today I get to find out if I will have a son or daughter in 4 months! The thought is absolutely crazy. I have no inkling what so ever about what I am having, so it will be such a surprise tonight when I get to open the envelope with the much awaited news. I have been waiting since June 10th for this. June 10th is the day I took the pregnancy test. Everyday since then, I have been wondering if I have a little girl or a little boy inside me. Now that I feel my little love bean kick and squirm around, I wonder even more if its a little girl or a little boy! It will be nice to eliminate one gender so I can really buckle down on names. Its so hard seriously. I change my mind everyday, and everyday it seems that a name gets added or deleted from the list. Here is my list today. For a girl, I really like the names Bryler, Harlow, and Skylar. The whole middle name thing is still up in the air but I have some ideas. For a boy I have really close to nothing. I used to be set on the name Jace, or Jayce, but then when I put it in a sentence like this, "Jace's schedule keeps changing everyday!" it sounds like shit. I don't like saying "Jace's" it sounds dumb. So that one is OFF the list thank you very much. The only boy name currently ON the list is Axton. I have always been set on having the middle name be Nathaniel, after my brother of course. So Axton Nathaniel is the boys name for the day..and maybe it will even stick for 2 or 3. That is...of course depending on what I find out this evening!!!!!

Oooooopsies :)

This morning I accidentally locked my keys in my car. Now, anyone who really knows me knows that I am the master at locking my keys in my car. Meaning, if I go a month without doing so, it is a miracle. There are places in which I do not lock my car and just leave my keys in the ignition. Then there are places in which I lock my car. I should probably just lock my car at all points in time but there are times in which I leave my purse in my car even. (Don't worry I have no money anyways). My spare key is in my purse. So basically..if I accidentally lock myself out of my car, and I left my purse in my car..then I'm screwed! Triple A has been an excellent friend of mine for they have saved me in these sticky situations probably around 20 times. Not even joking. My Dad was already at work this morning when I realized I locked my keys in the car. So I called him and I said.."dad..I did something bad." He said....you locked your keys in your car? Yes sir that is correct could you please come help me? He said..where's your spare? I respond with...umm...in my purse that is in my car? So my lovely father drove all the way back out to the house to get my car unlocked. How nice. He could have just gave me a ride to work with him..but my cell phone was in my car and come on give me a break as if I could just go a full day without that. Get reeeeeeal.

Coughing Spell

I know, I am horrible. I have been slacking an immense amount at writing in this thing. Honestly, its not intentional, and honestly..if I forced myself to write on here it would just be shit. I still don't really have much to write right now, but I could at least be courteous enough to update you on my life. For one, baby is doing very well. I feel little meatball (even though I should start referring to it as meatloaf for it is far bigger than a meatball) moves around all the time and I love feeling it. I get to find out if it is a girl or a boy on Thursday and I just am so excited I can hardly sleep! Well actually I can hardly sleep lately because I have this ridiculous cough that will not go away. I get approximately 2 to 3 hours of sleep every night only because the rest of the time I lay there and cough my brains out. One of the luxuries of being pregnant is that you can't take over the counter medications to soothe such symptoms, instead you just have to deal with them. Awesome! It has been about a week and a half of this coughing spell and I couldn't take it anymore. I was going to wait to talk to the doctor about it on Friday when I have my monthly appointment, but I couldn't wait any longer. I called the doctor today and I was in at 10am. Well a lung infection it was my friends. I got prescribed some baby safe medicine and hopefully I'll feel better in a day or so :) I'm crossing my fingers! This past weekend I went to Milwaukee to get the rest of my clothes. I saw my closet and was instantly in wonderful spirits. Of course, a majority of these clothes probably don't fit over my belly...but still. I am very much enjoying my time with my wonderful Cody, and things couldn't be going better. He joined me on my trip to Milwaukee and we sure had a good time! We didn't really do as much as we thought we were going to, but thats okay :) Due to my lack of sleep, I really didn't have much energy to be gallivanting around anyways. Okay thats good for now.

Good Times, Good Times

I was just browsing through my external hard drive looking at pictures from past times. Drinking ones mostly. I came across some really funny ones. I just need to share them. I forget what it feels like to be three sheets to the wind. I miss my friends :( Don't worry, I'm coming to visit soon, I just have been busy growing a human!

Ashley and I on Spring Fling, drunk at..I had to think about it, and then I remembered we started drinking in our 9am class. Excellence.

Amber and I on her 21st Birthday! I'm drinking Pabst I just know it. I love it.

Beau and I, one of our many drinking nights. But this was Amber R's 21st birthday night

Now this is Amber W's 21st birthday on the Party Bus! Bob wanted to take a picture of me looking my best!

Oh me and my love bean Erin! Her birthday!!

This was an evening with Whitney and Dustin and John. John passed out and I put on his sweatshirt and Grandma Janice's velcro sneaks.

Awww, me and my bestie on her 21st! My eyes were still open slightly at this point.

Andrea and I drinking in a social setting aka on the counter. Both on our cell phones. Typical :)

Andrea and I again, on her 21st Birthday if I remember correctly. Or not correctly. Either way.

This night was fun! This was when us three first moved into our apartment last year and had a "ladies night". Too much happened this evening. Let me try to remember.

1. We got incredibly shitfaced

2.We were dressed in ridiculous outifts

3.The RA came knocking on the door because we were being too loud and Brittany ran to the bathroom to hide and she was so loud running it sounded like a herd of buffalo. I was stuck answering the door in a lime green evening gown, a camo hat, a pink corduroy jacket with white fur on it and brown chucks. Somehow, we didn't get asked if we were drinking..although I'm not really sure what humans would just be wearing this attire sober.

4. We made a cake and licked the frosting off only.

5. Took a million pictures!

6.Knocked down absolutely EVERYTHING in our shower including the shower rod, and curtain as well as putting a huge hole in the ceiling in the bathroom.

This is just an infamous party picture because Brittany looks rather absurd in this one. Well dead sexy really. Super Tan, and Super pretty smile. I laugh really hard everytime I see it. After she saw it, she instantly bought a tanning package. Well I think she had to get it approved by her parents first so she could charge it to her card :)

This was an evening just Brit and I went out, we didn't even expect to get drunk but ended up having a real good time. We have a lot of crazy pictures from this night.

Night of the beverage, "Mess you up's" Delicious really!

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This picture is rather irrelevant. I just kind of liked it.

Sorrrrrry!

I know I haven't written in centuries, but that is because I had nothing to write about. Now I can think of a bunch of stuff so here I go!
Last thursday I went to the doctor and I got to hear my baby's heartbeat! My mom came with me to my appointment, so she got to hear her grandbabies heartbeat too! The heartbeat was at 166! The doctor said that the baby kept moving around and was quite the active little one :) In case anyone was wondering, my names currently are, girl: Adeline ___ Jewell. Middle name not figured out yet. Boy: Jace Nathaniel Jewell
Friday night I hung out with Cody and we had a grand ole time. I forget what we did even. We watched a couple movies and then jammed out to some good tunes til the wee hours of the morning. I very much enjoy spending time with this character :)
Saturday I went to a birthday party at my aunt and uncle's house. We were celebrating my papa's birthday, my brother-in-law's birthday, and my uncles birthday. I had so much fun! It was nice spending time with the family because it feels like I never see them. Well I think thats because I really do hardly ever see them. Hopefully that will change soon though! I played my papa in Wii Bowling and I beat him by only a few points! Dinner was absolutely delicious! Afterwards I even accidently indulged in a little nap. Hey come on now, I have a human growing inside of me what do you expect!!! Saturday evening I went over to Cody's and we watched Dirty Jobs, the episode with the reusable diapers. Ohhhhh my goodness how disgusting. I laughed a lot at it though so that made the disgustingness that much better.
Sunday I had my usual day with my sister! We went into hudson and went grocery shopping. Number one rule in grocery shopping, DO NOT GO HUNGRY!!!!!!! My sister was hungry, and we got a little bit more then we meant to. After we went grocery stopping we stopped at Mcdonalds and she got an icecream cone and I got a fruit and yogurt parfait. The fruit was still frozen in the middle but thats how I like it!! Jessie always enjoys her ice cream cones!
I am finally feeling the little baby inside me :) I can't wait until a little later on when the feeling is a bit stronger. It feels like someone is churning butter in my stomach! People always say that it feels like gas or butterflies or something of the sort. I don't think I would describe it as that. I guess I don't really know how I would describe it. I guess I have a sound effect that I could use to describe it but that doesn't really describe it well at all. Especially since you can't hear me when I make the noise. But if it makes you feel any better I just made it and my dad looked at me funny. They say that now the baby's sense of hearing is starting to develop. Ooooh man. I was driving home last night and I was listening to a certain song and man oh man I was just jammin my little heart out until I remembered that my baby could hear me and then I felt sorry for the little one. I can't believe it has to hear my disgusting singing voice everytime I rock out in my car by myself! Ohhh well, must get used to the sound of my voice eventually!!! The other evening Cody had me laughing so hard to the point of tears and after I could regain my breath, I felt so bad because my baby probably felt like I was on a roller coaster or jumping rope because I was laughing so hard! Its really odd thinking of these different things when you're pregnant. I really am noticing my stomach getting bigger more often. Now when I am laying down in bed my belly sticks up a lot and before it wasn't as noticable when I was laying down. I love it :) Sometimes when I am getting ready in the morning I tell the little one jokes, but of course, I don't get a response so I just laugh at them myself and then apologize to baby for having such a weird mommy. I find out the gender on the 24th of September and the time is not coming soon enough that is for sure! Somedays I think, Oh I am for sure having a girl, and other days I think, oh I am for sure having a boy! Either way I will be so happy, and I'm sure finding out it will be the happiest moment of my pregnancy :) Anyhow, Tonight I am going to go out to eat with my mother, and then we maybe are watching a movie?? It seems like forever since I have seen her, and her doggies. Princess and Bailey!!!!!!

Thoughts

I woke up this morning feeling a little funny. I can't really put my finger on the feeling, all I know is that it wasn't the most pleasant one. I had a million things running through my head the second my eyelids opened for the first time today. I have been pregnant for 4 months, and in 5 more months I will have a baby in my arms that is all mine. I don't want to say that it hasn't hit me yet, because it has on numerous occasions. Just today I have been thinking thoughts I haven't really before. This was very much a surprise, and is now taking me down a path I never imagined would be plowed for me at this moment in my life. Sometimes I think, if I only knew this was going to happen now, I would have partied a little harder before, or tried to actually save my money to travel a little bit more, or been that much more adventurous. If I only knew seems to be the beginning of many thoughts this morning. I read how my friends are going back to school in 2 weeks, and how they had so much fun out the night before drinking etc etc etc. The fact is, I'm not upset that I can't do these things right now. I have no problem giving all that up for the health of my baby. I just won't fully realize the extent of how much this is going to change my life until the baby is actually born. I am not ashamed of the fact that I am pregnant, and I would be excited to tell anyone in the whole world that I have a little one on the way. I guess I was just proven to me today that everything happens for a reason. And even if you have your life planned out one way, it doesn't mean its always going to go that way. The only thing you need to remember about living life is exactly just that. You just have to live it. You don't have to plan anything, you don't have to decide anything. You just have to let what happens happens. Know nothing, but know everything at the same time. Say nothing, but say everything at the same time. Be nothing, but be everything. <--- that is something for a completely different blog for a completely different day. Regardless, even though someone may look at my situation as a burden, I just want to say that something like this happening is the exact opposite. What keeps my mind positioning positive, is the fact that I know I will love nothing more then I will love my child. It will be my reason for living, and my reason to live up to my full potential. I already feel this unconditional love for my baby, and I have not even met it yet! Love cannot be explained in words, though I suppose one could try. When I lay in bed at night and I am not quite sleeping yet, but just thinking, I get the mini adreneline rush that feels directly on my heart, and the butterflies in my stomach. And this is the feeling that I get when I am very much reassured that even though this isn't what I planned for myself right now, it will be the best thing that has ever happened to me.