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This picture is rather irrelevant. I just kind of liked it.

Sorrrrrry!

I know I haven't written in centuries, but that is because I had nothing to write about. Now I can think of a bunch of stuff so here I go!
Last thursday I went to the doctor and I got to hear my baby's heartbeat! My mom came with me to my appointment, so she got to hear her grandbabies heartbeat too! The heartbeat was at 166! The doctor said that the baby kept moving around and was quite the active little one :) In case anyone was wondering, my names currently are, girl: Adeline ___ Jewell. Middle name not figured out yet. Boy: Jace Nathaniel Jewell
Friday night I hung out with Cody and we had a grand ole time. I forget what we did even. We watched a couple movies and then jammed out to some good tunes til the wee hours of the morning. I very much enjoy spending time with this character :)
Saturday I went to a birthday party at my aunt and uncle's house. We were celebrating my papa's birthday, my brother-in-law's birthday, and my uncles birthday. I had so much fun! It was nice spending time with the family because it feels like I never see them. Well I think thats because I really do hardly ever see them. Hopefully that will change soon though! I played my papa in Wii Bowling and I beat him by only a few points! Dinner was absolutely delicious! Afterwards I even accidently indulged in a little nap. Hey come on now, I have a human growing inside of me what do you expect!!! Saturday evening I went over to Cody's and we watched Dirty Jobs, the episode with the reusable diapers. Ohhhhh my goodness how disgusting. I laughed a lot at it though so that made the disgustingness that much better.
Sunday I had my usual day with my sister! We went into hudson and went grocery shopping. Number one rule in grocery shopping, DO NOT GO HUNGRY!!!!!!! My sister was hungry, and we got a little bit more then we meant to. After we went grocery stopping we stopped at Mcdonalds and she got an icecream cone and I got a fruit and yogurt parfait. The fruit was still frozen in the middle but thats how I like it!! Jessie always enjoys her ice cream cones!
I am finally feeling the little baby inside me :) I can't wait until a little later on when the feeling is a bit stronger. It feels like someone is churning butter in my stomach! People always say that it feels like gas or butterflies or something of the sort. I don't think I would describe it as that. I guess I don't really know how I would describe it. I guess I have a sound effect that I could use to describe it but that doesn't really describe it well at all. Especially since you can't hear me when I make the noise. But if it makes you feel any better I just made it and my dad looked at me funny. They say that now the baby's sense of hearing is starting to develop. Ooooh man. I was driving home last night and I was listening to a certain song and man oh man I was just jammin my little heart out until I remembered that my baby could hear me and then I felt sorry for the little one. I can't believe it has to hear my disgusting singing voice everytime I rock out in my car by myself! Ohhh well, must get used to the sound of my voice eventually!!! The other evening Cody had me laughing so hard to the point of tears and after I could regain my breath, I felt so bad because my baby probably felt like I was on a roller coaster or jumping rope because I was laughing so hard! Its really odd thinking of these different things when you're pregnant. I really am noticing my stomach getting bigger more often. Now when I am laying down in bed my belly sticks up a lot and before it wasn't as noticable when I was laying down. I love it :) Sometimes when I am getting ready in the morning I tell the little one jokes, but of course, I don't get a response so I just laugh at them myself and then apologize to baby for having such a weird mommy. I find out the gender on the 24th of September and the time is not coming soon enough that is for sure! Somedays I think, Oh I am for sure having a girl, and other days I think, oh I am for sure having a boy! Either way I will be so happy, and I'm sure finding out it will be the happiest moment of my pregnancy :) Anyhow, Tonight I am going to go out to eat with my mother, and then we maybe are watching a movie?? It seems like forever since I have seen her, and her doggies. Princess and Bailey!!!!!!

Thoughts

I woke up this morning feeling a little funny. I can't really put my finger on the feeling, all I know is that it wasn't the most pleasant one. I had a million things running through my head the second my eyelids opened for the first time today. I have been pregnant for 4 months, and in 5 more months I will have a baby in my arms that is all mine. I don't want to say that it hasn't hit me yet, because it has on numerous occasions. Just today I have been thinking thoughts I haven't really before. This was very much a surprise, and is now taking me down a path I never imagined would be plowed for me at this moment in my life. Sometimes I think, if I only knew this was going to happen now, I would have partied a little harder before, or tried to actually save my money to travel a little bit more, or been that much more adventurous. If I only knew seems to be the beginning of many thoughts this morning. I read how my friends are going back to school in 2 weeks, and how they had so much fun out the night before drinking etc etc etc. The fact is, I'm not upset that I can't do these things right now. I have no problem giving all that up for the health of my baby. I just won't fully realize the extent of how much this is going to change my life until the baby is actually born. I am not ashamed of the fact that I am pregnant, and I would be excited to tell anyone in the whole world that I have a little one on the way. I guess I was just proven to me today that everything happens for a reason. And even if you have your life planned out one way, it doesn't mean its always going to go that way. The only thing you need to remember about living life is exactly just that. You just have to live it. You don't have to plan anything, you don't have to decide anything. You just have to let what happens happens. Know nothing, but know everything at the same time. Say nothing, but say everything at the same time. Be nothing, but be everything. <--- that is something for a completely different blog for a completely different day. Regardless, even though someone may look at my situation as a burden, I just want to say that something like this happening is the exact opposite. What keeps my mind positioning positive, is the fact that I know I will love nothing more then I will love my child. It will be my reason for living, and my reason to live up to my full potential. I already feel this unconditional love for my baby, and I have not even met it yet! Love cannot be explained in words, though I suppose one could try. When I lay in bed at night and I am not quite sleeping yet, but just thinking, I get the mini adreneline rush that feels directly on my heart, and the butterflies in my stomach. And this is the feeling that I get when I am very much reassured that even though this isn't what I planned for myself right now, it will be the best thing that has ever happened to me.

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This picture is the nightmare that happened to me. Last night I arrived back at home at around 1am, and as I was walking to my room I felt something wiggling around in my pants around my thigh area. I immediately started freaking out because I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE bugs. As I grabbed this moving creature I realized it was a HUMUNGOUS bug. I grabbed it with my fingers and did everything in my might not to scream ridiculously loud. I started breathing so fast and my heart felt as if it was going to pop out of my chest. I told myself "its only a bug calm down calm down its not good for the baby to freak out like this calm down calm down" Well that didn't work. I was freaking the heck out. It could have been a freaking black widow spider for all I knew. This thing felt like it had 200 legs 6 sets of wings, 100 stingers, and 6 lbs of gooey stuff on its body (so my mind was telling me). I had this creature squished between my fingers and I had to take my pants off while holding on to this bug to refrain it from going any further. I was honestly deathly afraid of what I was going to find. Most people who know me know that I hate bugs more than anything in the entire world. I could see a black bear and think..oo thats kinda scary maybe I should go elsewhere. But I see a little beetle and I feel helpless like I should surrender my life. Regardless. When my pants were finally off, I started putting them inside out to see what was on the inside and THIS IS WHAT I FOUND :(:(:(:(:(:(:( It took me 3 hours to fall asleep last night because I felt like I had been tortured to the point of no return. It was like carma in its worst form but I couldn't think of anything I've done lately to deserve such things. Maybe thats what I get for not hanging out with my sister yesterday :( I really really hate bugs.
P.S. My friend Mandy set me up with a nice gentleman this weekend and we had lots of fun! More details later however. I'm too mortified about the bug to think straight right now.

Spaghetti

I could honestly eat spaghetti every single day of my life. Not even joking. I could eat it for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I think I get this fetish from my father who also enjoys spaghetti multiple times a week. Last week I had spaghetti for dinner 3 times. Needless to say, when Cathy called me this morning and told me we were having spaghetti for dinner, I was THRILLED!!!! I CAN'T WAIT FOR SPAGHETTI TONIGHT!!!!!!

Pooor kitty :(

I know I already wrote today, but I just had to write this. It couldn't wait until tomorrow. Today was such a crazy day. Well, not really at all it basically consisted of nothing, but it felt like it consisted of everything!!!!!! Let me start with the end of my evening at work.
I signed up for Netflix, which I have been meaning to do for awhile. Since I had done so, I can now watch movies instantly on there!! Wow! Something for me to do at work! So I was browsing through the movies and decided to watch a movie I have never heard of before. It was called The Japanese Story. Ooooh my lanta let me just tell you. I was balling my freaking eyeballs out. Honestly, I went through tissue after tissue. Before I was pregnant I never cried at movies..and heck, I hardly ever even laughed at movies. Its not that I didn't enjoy movies, I just never emotionally got involved in them..in any way. Regardless, ever since I have been pregnant movies just have me going through a whirlwind of fun. I laugh hysterically and cry obnoxiously. I was enjoying the movie today and then towards the end I could hardly even see the screen because I was crying so much. What the hell is wrong with me. Now that was a tear jerker if you ever asked for one geez louise. Once that was over I decided to watch a quick little documentary about Coral Reef to ease my sadness brought on by the Japanese Story. Did you know that Coral Reefs all around the Ocean are dying!?? How sad :( I can't even talk about it because it makes me so sad. So basically, I thought that by watching a documentary about Coral Reef my tensions would be eased and in a way I thought it would even bring about happy feelings from all the pretty fishies and colors. Wow. I was wrong. It was not about pretty fishies and pretty Coral Reef. It was about how they are dying all over the ocean which means a bunch of the pretty fishies are dying and now all the pretty Coral Reef looks like hard mud. aaaaah! There I was crying again about the Coral Reef. Netflix brought about such sad feelings in me today :(
After I left work I went to the grocery store because I was really craving some kool-aid. I think this is because Mandy had some at her house the other day and it looked really good. Regardless, as I pulled into the grocery store parking lot, I could not help but notice THE ELEPHANT HANGING OUT IN THE LAWN NEXT TO IT! ummmm, Hello Mr. Elephant where do you belong? I think you might have the wrong continent. Do you belong to someone? Do you know that you are at a grocery store? I'd give you a ride mister but I don't think you'd fit in my car! My jaw was literally dragging on the ground not even joking. I then remembered that I'm a freaking idiot. Duh there was an elephant in the grocery store lawn! Its called the circus is going to be here tomorrow!!!!!!!! Duh duh duh Caitlin you dumb idiot! I seroiusly thought the elephant was lost at first when I saw it. I have a picture of the supposed lost elephant in the grocery store lawn on my phone, but I can't send it to my e-mail currently because I don't have any service so I'll add it tomorrow at work.
To continue on with my evening, I arrive back at my Dads. Let me remind you folks that I am currently staying at my Dads by mysel for he is away at Sturgis with my step mom, and my little sister is staying with the grandparents. I get out of my car and the dogs are no where to be found. Usually they run right up to you and greet you upon your arrival. I knew this meant trouble. I couldn't help but notice this absolute ear screaching noise coming from the garage. Kind of like...a dying/mating goose. I was actually kind of frightened to go see what it was but I figured I had to man up and check it out. There was a poor little kitty all tangled up in the soccer net that is in the garage! I was so sad I went right up to it and said "ooooh poor kitty I'll help you get untangled so you can go off and play with the rest of your friends" That little sucker hissed like nothing I've heard before and swung its paws at me like nothing ever seen before. Honestly, I was so scared of it. I felt as if it had rabies or something because of its extreme hostility towards me. I just wanted to help it out, honestly. Nothing else. I knew that if I didn't help it, it would be stuck in there until Sunday when the crew returned and it would be dead by then. :( Ooooooh no. I hate these kind of situations. So I called my Dad and I told him the story. I told him that I was so scared of the kitten because it was so viscious sounding. He said, stop being such a baby and put on some gloves and go untangle it. He gave me the little boost of confidence that I needed and I thought to myself, "yeah!!! I can do this! I will save the kitty and I will feel so proud of myself and good for my nice gesture!" Yeaaaaaaaaaah stinkin right. The second I got back out to the garage I was scared shitless again. What the hell. What was I supposed to do. I could not get near the thing without it trying to attack me and wiggle around ten times more and get stuck ten times worse! I thought that maybe Max would come out and get the kitty out, or my brother Nathaniel. The bad part about this is that Max and Nathaniel would have to drive a heck of a long distance to get here. Probably about a 45 minute drive. BUT THERE WAS NO OTHER OPTIONS PEOPLE! Honestly, I tried my best and I did not succeed. I called my sister (Max's wife/Jessie) and she told me that there was no way in hell that Max would drive all that way to save a kitty. I thought to myself, so he wants me to just let this kitty DIE and have its burial ground be a soccer net!?! So I called my brother and what a champion. He said he would come over, and he'd be there in about an hour. Woofta, I felt so relieved. As I walked into the house I notice that the door is open and the dogs are inside. The outide dogs are inside. Oh My Gosh could anything else go wrong here. My little sisters brand new DVD case is chewed to pieces like a freaking dog bone. There is pee on the rug. I did not even want to go upstairs but I figured I should. The dogs didn't touch the computer room, nor did they venture into my Dad and step moms room. They dodged my little sisters room but do not fret my friends..they did manage to get to my room! Duh! Why wouldn't they!??! My name is Caitlin Jewell and I literally have the worst luck known to man kind. If you want to fight me for this position I double dare you. Everything on my dresser was knocked down including my little pair of chuck taylors for my baby to come, my necklaces, perfume, and the worst of all...I couldn't find my ultrasound pictures :(:(:(. I thought to myself. NOW THAT IS IT! YOU DOGS ARE DEEEEEEEEEAD MEAT!!!! I then looked everywhere in my room for my ultrasound pictures, and you'll be relieved to know that I did find them. Unharmed even :) I was thrilled. If anything would have happened to them I would have just crawled into bed and cried myself to sleep. Anyhow, after all that madness I made some well deserved Kool-Aid. I forgot how stinkin delicious it is. I also forgot that if I drink Kool-Aid after 7.....I can't sleep at all. Ooooopsies. Looks like I'll be up til the wee hours of the night tonight. My brother and Whitney finally showed up and my brother rescued the little kitty!!!!!!!!! Woofta. What a day. That is all I gotta say. I just had to share all of this with you, and now I am going to go downstairs. I am going to attempt to stay away from the Kool-Aid in the refridgerator, and I am going to attempt to calm down enough to fall asleep.
Tomorrow my mom is joining me for dollar tacos and I can't wait!!! I am crossing my fingers for a better day tomorrow!

I hate Mondays!!!!!!

Monday mornings really suck balls. I haaaaaate waking up. Hate Hate Hate Hate Hate. Even if I go to bed at a decent time, I still cannot get up in the morning to save my life. This week I am working in my Dad's office, but he isn't here. He went to Sturgis for the week. When my alarm was going off this morning I kept thinking to myself..hmm...if I sleep in just an hour longer, he would never know! Of course I figured my Dad would call the office at 9:01 to make sure I was here and sure enough, 9:12 he called. Good thing I got my lazy butt out of bed. I definitely am in comfy clothes right now, and definitely don't have any make up on...and definitely don't care. I have spent my morning jammin out to some killer tunes, talking with my mom on the phone, eating pizza, and drinkin some Dr. Pepper. Aaaahh..what a diet I know!
Tomorrow I am going to the circus with my sister Ame and my sister Jessie. I am excited. I've never been to the circus before! I just really hope the smell of the creatures and creatures dropplings don't make me hurl everywhere. I'll take some pictures tomorrow and tell you all about it!
Sometimes during the day I feel as if I would literally pay one million dollars to take a nap. And that is not even a joke. If you can hardly keep your eyelids open, what is the point of continuing to try!? It seems as if Sundays have turned into my movie watching day. I lounge around and watch movies aaaallllll day long. I usually watch a movie right away in the morning, and then go to my sisters early afternoon and then her and I watch movies until 9 at night. And I get to snuggle with her doggies. She has one little little dog luca, and one big big dog Clyde. It is very apparent that Clyde thinks he is the size of Luca, and when he wants to snuggle with you on the couch, not only does he jump on you like you're a human trampoline, but he is not very generous as to where he places his paws. Watch out boobs that feel like boulders! I do admit though, I like cuddling with him even though he takes up a majority of the sofa. I wasn't very fond of Clyde at first, but now that I am getting to know him better I like him a lot. Yesterday when he was sleeping on the couch he must have been dreaming that he was running somewhere and his legs were just a goin at it. It was really funny.
Okay fine, I will attempt to maybe get something done. <--- that is actually a very big lie because I am not going to attempt to do anything but start reading a book.